5566

About my fav. 5566 - and their miscalculation



(Where has our 5566 been?) This headline was published together with two pictures, one of 5566 and the other of F4. At the first glimpse, it gave the impression that 5566 is going to fade like the first generation Taiwanese boy band- F4. Further reading of the article really put me in great despair and an urge to stand up and shout, "I will always support you, Tony Sun Xie Zhi!"

Indeed, like many others, I have fallen for Tony Sun after the debut of their first drama series – MVP Valentine in 2002. At first, it was his look and charisma on TV that attracted my attention, but as time goes by, there is something in him that gave an added zest to my adoration for him. His journey to stand out as a star, his dreams, his determination to achieve his goal and his relentless care for his team have all made him a suitable candidate for us to name him as an "idol". My thoughts have not changed until now. It's just that it was my very first time feeling extremely sad for him. What happened?

5566 is going out of hand. A strategy has failed and it might put the band into a slippery slope. During this period of time (Past 6-8 months), Mr. Sun has been in China shooting his new film, Zax Wong has been in Taiwan shooting a drama series of his own, Sam Wong has been busy with his 183 club and Meng Zhe ( I don't know what he is doing). Lately, Zax Wong has announced that he was going to have a baby in November. On the surface, team leader and 5566 manager, Mr Sun, seemed to show that they are really happy about the incident. Yet, they knew deep in their hearts that this is a real slap in the face. Firstly, 5566 has already been losing fans that require constant assurance and entertainment from them. Their disappearance for this timeframe might not be able to retain the hearts of us, the impressionable teenagers, and face the ever-changing and cruel media. Moreover, with such negative reports, criticisms will arise and when people do not feel proud of them, many would turn to other artists. Die-hard fans would just be helpless. They can just watch and sigh.

If this really happens, Tony Sun's dream will be demolished. Their image now already requires a new change - with Zax Wong being an "unmarried Dad", the term "boy band" might not be so relevant. Well, I am here to support Tony Sun Xie Zhi. However, it would not be good to see 5566 tearing apart - it was my idol's wish to create a band that last. Could his dream ever happen? What would they plan to do next?


Failed Business Strategy

Being an artist is really about knowing how to do a business. It requires packaging, advertising and marketing. It involves risk. If one takes a wrong step, this business deal will fail. It would require much courage and effort to recover. 5566 has adopted a bad business strategy this very year, first with Sam Wong being in 183, next with Tony, an important and responsible team leader, being away for long, it is not surprising that Zax has the time to dream of wanting to fly on his own. It is really time for the two Suns (5566's manager and Tony) to sit down and reorganize their plan. The worst thing is - Tony is still not finished with his movie and he is even getting hurt physically.
Yet, Jia You lo!

Your die-hard fans,
Hiu Yan

Be true to your image- something I learn through time

If one spends a fortune on four colour, glossy brochures that tell people about your company, you want them to percieve that you run professional outfit that delivers quality good and servies. This goes the same for a media industry.

Similarily, if you deliver a quality product or service, your marketing materials should reflect this. One's image, reflected by advertising, should so 2 things
1) Convince people you are worth doing business with, and
2) Position you in the market

Whether you are at the top, middle or bottom of a price scale, your image needs to communicate that. If your image is not consistent and compatible with your pricing and your level of service, you are going to confuse and alienate your customers.

People do not just buy because thay are dazzled or blown away by what they see. they buy because they are convinced that you can do the job, deliver the quality and value they expect, and that your track record is solid.

Image of 5566 was an exemplary of a successful image created by the Taiwan's media industry. Yet, with the products beginning to deterior, consumers are buffled. Once they start scrutinizing into its truth value, it simply means that the very trust is lost. This is something that every businessman want to avoid.

Here are 5 tips from Patricia Fripp, A US - based executive speech coach and professional speaker on change, customer service and communication, which gave me those inspiring thoughts.

1) CLEAR INFORMATION
How easily can people understand what you are saying? People do not buy when they are confused.

2) QUALITY INFORMATION
A lot of marketers these days will send out " free information", "valued information" or even "money-making information", at no charge as a small sample of what you will get when you actually pay money.

3) QUALITY DESIGN AND PRINTED MATERIALS
The production values in what you do and deliver must match the quality of the marketing materials you send out.

4) THIRD PARTY ENDORSEMENT
Let others trumpet how good you are. There is no better way to convince people.

5) STRONG IMAGES
Compel your customers to imagine doing business with you and seeing it an easy, positive and benficial experience. Create an image or word picture of this interaction. Tell the story. Make it leap off the page.

Impressive, clear, marketing efforts that mirror your image and what you deliver are your key to successful marketing.


This is actually relevant to everybody. Not just businessman. Business is something that we involve ourselves in everyday, without consciously knowing it.

For those who are aware, they have the chance to earn more than others.

Business. Require high EQ. Even the most intelligent being on Earth can be deceived by it.




A report on Tony Sun.
http://mypaper.pchome.com.tw/news/always5566/3/1274323067/20061015163555>

We f***K the world video

This video is super funny. It shows American politicians and serves as a mockery to Bush's policies. My mummy will love that! However, I didn't quite understand why they sang, "we f***k the children."

P.S. Not suitable for people under 18!

globalisation

Suddenly, this gives me a thought. Do people really care about the cons on moving into a global culture? Professionals like businessman, politicians, traders definitely don't; they are more then willing to support it. For a student like me, who is coerced to look into such issues due to an important examination, often ended up being cynical about the world? We looked at debates, trying to understand the complexity of these issues, but in the end, nothing can be done. People in power have more things to be concerned about; activists and protesters are often turned downed.We, as selfish people, are too busy to unite ourselves and come up with solutions.

Consider the merits and drawbacks of a global culture.
Globalisation is a phenomenon which has far-reaching implications on the way we live our lives. In a world increasingly interconnected by the accessible media such as the Internet as well as modern travel, links are increasingly being forged across continents. The continous interaction of ideals, thoughts and attitudes have led to the formation of a global culture - a way of life which is no longer determined by geographical boundaries or ethnic origins. It is telling that many young people in this modern era feel they can identify more with people on the other side if the globe with whom they communicate with through the INternet than with their own family members. A global culture is not a term which is easily identifiable or defined, but it is sufficient to say that there is a trend towards the amalgamation of previously separated cultures on a scale unmatched in history. A cultural paradigm shift such as this demands a consideration of its impact in the world's population.

The move towards globalization has obviously eradicated most of the barrier which prevented the free transmission of ideas. People nowadays are more aware of issues and incidents across the world pertinent to their own lives. Citizens in the Western world are more than ever, intensely concerned with the democratic processes in developing countries such as Zimbabwe. This increased the awareness of how issues around the globe affect the way we lead our lives is a welcome change form the previously xenophobic attitudes many countries possessed. In some sense, the very presence of a global culture has led people to be more accepting of other ways of life and cosmopolitan cities such as San Francisco have demonstrated how different communities can interact peacefully and even celebrate a fusion of their cultures. The development of a global culture means that people are no longer bounded by stereotypes of other communities, since it is more difficult to cling on to these stereotypes if one’s own cultural identity is shared by other communities. The popularity of Chinese themed fusion restaurants in New York, and its recently opened Disneyland in Hong Kong are testament of how people embraced this global culture which has sought to preserve the best of what each subculture has to offer while combining it in a manner which makes it attractive to all sorts of people. This not only leads to a more vibrant, varied way of life, it also helps to breed cultural understanding and acceptance among different groups.

Furthermore, the development of a global culture means that people are no longer bounded by geography in developing their own niche interests. Youth in traditionally conservative countries like Japan are no longer bound by the restrains of culture and tradition because the global culture has enabled them to find counterparts in other ocuntires who think in similar ways. Previously, these youths could have been forced to conform to their conservative culture allowed no avenue to develop new ideas and concepts. It can be argued that allowing people to break free from their cultural restrains and interact across cultures, enables them to find a group of people more attuned to their interests, instead of remaining disillusioned in a system which discourages the development of new ideas. Looking at the way youths in China agitate against the boundaries laid in place by the government as a result of exposure to previously ideals of democracy and free speech demonstrates on how global culture can break restraints and foster the development of revolutionary exciting ideas.

While the discussion thus far has tended to portray traditional ethnic identities or cultures as being anachronistic, it cannot be denied that there is much which should be kept and treasured in these traditional cultures. After all, these roots present us with a sense of history as well as differences which ought to be celebrated. The danger of a global culture is that it has the potential to gloss over these differences, or worse, to distort them in such a way that makes them unrecognizable in the constant quest for a global culture. There have been instances in which the intrusion of other cultures has led to despoiling of legacies which arguably should have remained intact. There was a furore about how Starbucks, a coffee chain with distinctively Western identity has set up a store right in the Forbidden City of China itself. In such a scenario, the drawback of the global culture is that it failed to differentiate between what could be assimilated into a shared culture and what should be remained the distinct cultural property of the Chinese people. The development of a global culture is an unrestrained one carried out by people with no proper agenda, and it is perhaps in the midst of this, people undermined the best parts of a traditional culture. The symbol of Starbucks in Forbidden City is perhaps a lingering reminder of how an insensitive application of a symbol of global culture has led to a situation worse off then before.

Increasingly, there have been criticisms arguing that globalization acts as a force for western imperialism. It is unavoidable that acts as barriers are broken down and cultures interact, that the way of life propagated by the American has taken the front seat due to the America’s dominance in the economic and political spheres. As such, the tendency to degenerate into a culture dominated by one way of life is perhaps the greatest drawback of the global culture. The way traditional arts in Singapore has been passed over in the influx of high budget Hollywood movies, is a clear example of how there has been a disproportionate amount of Western influence over the supposedly ‘global culture’. This distorts global culture such that it is no longer a culture shared and participated in equally by the people of the world. Instead it is merely Western culture that is largely influential and applied almost indiscriminately across the globe.

It is evident that such a distortion of the global culture acts as a greatly divisive force instead of a unifying one. The trend of counter-globalization has picked up pace in the recent years, and in some cases it is argued that the acts of militant Islamic terrorists are due to their hatred of Western culture encroachment and imposition on a heritage they hold dera. This does not of course excuse their acts, but in very fact that pople are willing to die and kill in protest of this cultural imperialism provides a sense of caution that global culture is not always the uniting force it theoretically should be. Across the globe, people protest at the increasingly dominant role America is taking, not only in democratic institutions, but in our very living rooms. It seems that global culture will always have to face a truly assimilating force, or one dominated by the ruling power of the time. The promise in ancient times of a Pax Romana, a unification of the known world at the time, is an obvious parallel in the way the superpower’s institutions and way of life come to override that of other culture it assimilates. The question remains as to whether such dominance is inevitable in the formation of a global culture, or if it can be prevented by sensitivity on the part of America.

In conclusion, the advent of a global culture holds a great promise; however, it faces the dangerous tendency of being a culture which insensitivity overrides others. There is little doubt that a global culture can be very strong integrative or disintegrative force, depending on whether the balance is struck between taking the best from traditional cultures or completely eliminating them. In the end, regardless of the merits and demerits of the global culture, it seems it is here to stay, and the best attitude to take towards it would be probably be one of moderation ensuring that it remains a vibrant global culture instead of a boring homogeneous one. The distinction, if made, will determine if global culture will benefit or drag humanity down.

Income and its distribution

Income and its distribution

As Nobel prize-winning economist Amartya Sen and others emphasize, poverty is about more than income. But income is central. Practically all other dimensions of human misery are, or can be, made more bearable through money.


It is striking, however, how little income distribution within countries seems to have changed during the last 50 years, including recent "globalization years." This is depressing because in most developing countries, income is distributed very unequally — and much more so than in virtually any industrialized country.

JOHNS HOPKINS AND A*STAR'S FALLING-OUT

I came across this article and felt that it is rather interesting. Here, I think that my brother can be considered as a child of the divorced family. A*Star being the father who is paying for all the expenses of his education and JOhn Hopkins being the mother who is provding him with his formal and moral education. A very typical example of today's families. Yet, the only different is that, my brother is more than happy ever.

The following is a sad story as well as something we can learn from. ;D
Highly recommended.
A well written analysis and comparison.

How a perfect marriage' fell apart
JOHNS HOPKINS AND A*STAR'S FALLING-OUT
By: Chang Ai-Lien & Daryl Loo

Broken promises, cultural mismatch and unclear pre-nuptial agreement blamed for
the break-up

ON THE surface, it was the perfect marriage.
On one side, a rich, ambitious suitor; on the other, a partner of fine pedigree eager to tie the knot and explore a foreign land.
So began the collaboration between the Singapore Government and esteemed American institution Johns Hopkins University (JHU), to much fanfare in 1998.
With the Republic's National Science and Technology Board opening wide its coffers, the dream was for Johns Hopkins' overseas arm to take local research
and education to a higher plane.
For the brand-name US medical and research facility, it was a chance to get a foothold in the region.
Johns Hopkins Singapore would have 75 researchers to look at key diseases and work closely with institutions here to develop patents, publish papers and
create companies.
The end result - money made, jobs created, lives saved.
Big dreams and lofty hopes indeed.
Eight years and $82 million later, the papers were filled instead with news of a divorce, little to show for the time and money invested, and accusations of promises broken and unhappiness on both sides.

Cracks appear

CRACKS began to appear soon after the honeymoon.
Just a year after the partners wed, a review showed that Johns Hopkins Singapore had 'significant problems in moving ahead in its research and education programmes', according to the director of the A*Star's Biomedical Research Council, Dr Andre Wan.
A*Star - the Agency for Science, Technology and Research - inherited the project from its predecessor NSTB in 2002.
Among the key results lacking, Johns Hopkins Singapore could not get senior faculty or come up with the $23 million it had earlier agreed to raise.
Efforts to refine the relationship failed and, in 2003, another restructuring exercise took place, resulting in a new baby - the Division of Johns Hopkins in Singapore (DJHS), the university's first division outside its home base in Baltimore.
A*Star kept its end of the bargain by providing the funds.
Yet, despite clear targets agreed on by each side and laid out in 13 key performance indicators, the Johns Hopkins division failed to deliver on eight, including having no graduate students or patents filed.
The goals the division said it met, such as the number of papers published, are still being examined by A*Star.
Yet JHU said initially that Singapore had not kept its commitment to meet its financial and educational obligations, and called it a 'reputational issue for Singapore and A*Star', a statement which the agency refuted strongly.

Opportunities lost

IN their latest joint statement on Aug 3, both parties appeared to have made up, at least in public.
Retracting its earlier allegations, Johns Hopkins acknowledged and thanked A*Star for its financial and other support and said it recognised its reputation for excellence and integrity.
The matter is closed, says Johns Hopkins. It remains silent on its change of heart, and why it initiated the conciliation with A*Star after its earlier flare-up.
A*Star has also softened its tone.
'We see this as an experiment which failed, but the relationship with Johns Hopkins is something ongoing,' said Dr Wan.
The generals of each camp, known for not mincing their words, remain silent.
But earlier communications are telling.
Johns Hopkins president William Brody made it clear that there are others eager to sign on the dotted line.
After learning of A*Star's decision to break up, he told its chairman Philip Yeo that he had decided to forfeit time set aside for a visit to Singapore to pursue interests in China.
Standing firm, Mr Yeo told Dr Brody in an e-mail: 'It is best that we start afresh and move ahead' rather than 'try to painfully salvage a broken project which will only damage our long relationship.
'Friendship is worth much more than a failed project.'
Both parties now say that while the immediate concern is winding down operations here, they look forward to pursuing mutual projects in the future.
However, given the very public fallout, it is unlikely for the pair to become willing bedfellows again, at such an ambitious level.
Professor Edison Liu, executive director of the Genome Institute of Singapore and DJHS Scientific Advisory Committee chairman, said with regret:
'Sometimes things just don't work out.
'The sadness is really the lost opportunity to do more work with Hopkins.'

Beyond appearances

THE news jolted the international research community and was highlighted in top
publications.
A common thread was how serious Singapore is in getting a bang for its buck.
The scientific journal Nature, for example, said in its report: 'The
Singaporean Government is known for its generosity in pumping money into international research projects. But it can apparently be ruthless if these projects do not please it.'
A view echoed by researchers here.
Said Professor Alan Colman, head of stem cell company ES Cell International:
'It is quite clear that the Singapore authorities do not want to be seen as
easy pickings.
'They want to bring in expertise but do not want to be exploited.'
So, while the salaries of top guns enticed to move here are legendary, so are the hours they are expected to put in, leading groups and institutes as well as sitting on boards, advisory panels and committees and helping to chart Singapore's research future.
Not surprising, given the high hopes for the biomedical sector to contribute $12.5 billion in value-added to GDP, and 15,000 jobs, by 2015.
While the failed Johns Hopkins experiment was no doubt a setback, most researchers and collaborators spoken to remain unshaken in their praise of
Singapore's efforts and progress.
Like the handful of world-class players already collaborating actively with local partners, Sweden's famed Karolinska Institutet said that its relationship
with Singapore remained unaffected.
'I doubt others will shy away,' said its president, Dr Harriet
Wallberg-Henriksson.
Added Professor David Lane, a foreign star recruited here to head the Institute of Molecular and Cell Biology: 'Both partners are hugely resilient so
I don't see any serious damage to either party.'

Irreconcilable differences

BUT many agree that things could have been done differently.
Given that this was one of the first collaborations of its kind, Singapore's
relative inexperience could have played a part in its downfall.
A major flaw was that the pre-nuptial agreements were unclear.
According to Dr Sydney Brenner, the Nobel laureate who has helped shape Singapore science for more than 20 years, it boils down to common sense.
'It's like a marriage contract, everybody has to know what to deliver,' he said. Prof Liu also pointed to a cultural mismatch.
On the calibre of candidates, for example, A*Star wanted scientists of repute, but Dr Brody contended that 'our experience over 100 years at Johns Hopkins is that the future belongs to the young scientists who have demonstrated remarkable ability even though they may not have achieved stardom'. Perhaps these differences were irreconcilable.

Boston University president Robert Brown, who chairs the Singapore Education
Ministry's Academic Research Council, feels it boils down to 'fundamental
differences' between mission-oriented A*Star and universities geared towards
academic research.
Prof Lane said that while much recruitment was of young, hungry researchers,
experience showed that a few big names helped to create a good mentoring
environment for training.
'Access to internationally top senior staff with biotech experience is also
very attractive to industry thinking of moving to Singapore,' he added.
Another problem, said Dr Brenner, was the lack of Singapore leadership
within the division.
'This is something you cannot administer from overseas. It is of course very
hard to get people to come here when their careers will be decided in America.
'It should have been a Singapore entity with a half-share.'
Said one researcher involved in the Singapore-MIT Alliance, a research and educational collaboration between local tertiary institutes and Boston's famed
Massachusetts Institute of Technology: 'The big names are often spread thin while young researchers may be inexperienced.
'Local scientists make sure projects are running as planned, we act as the
glue holding the pieces together.'
Leaders of several new collaborations add that they have avoided a cookie-cutter approach.
Professor Soo Khee Chee is vice-dean of a medical school being set up jointly by the National University of Singapore and another US big name - Duke University. This collaboration, he said, is 'hot-wired for success'.
To make sure the tie-up worked, there was a five-year engagement to iron out
the kinks.
Rather than transplanting Duke's entire curriculum here, for instance, local
faculty members went to the US to observe and adapt the course to local needs.
Such points are key, considering the importance of blossoming relationships
- classes start at the Duke-NUS Graduate Medical School next year, and MIT will
take its partnership with Singapore up a notch to set up its first research
centre outside the US here next year.
There are also five smaller but structured tie-ups between famous overseas
universities and local ones to create joint PhD programmes and a steady stream
of research talent - Sweden's Karolinska, Imperial College in Britain, Scotland's University of Dundee, and the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign and Carnegie Mellon University in the US.

Calling it quits

THE money for the JHU project - which cost an estimated $14 million a year to run - went mainly into paying up to 60 staff, equipment and supplies, and rental. And the 12-month winding down of operations here continues to impose costs on Singapore.
But measuring a programme's success, and knowing when to call it quits, is not always clear-cut.
Said Prof Lane: 'Science needs time to mature, so it is not easy to make
these judgments.
'The key to successful marriages is communication and flexibility, so I guess everyone will try that bit harder next time around.'
In a community where egos abound and personalities can overrid substance, holding a powerful and influential partner accountable takes courage and conviction.
Mr Yeo has been very clear on how he runs the show here.
'We must have key performance indicators in life, milestones and deliverables. We're spending taxpayers' money,' he said in a recent interview.
'No one can escape KPIs.'

Moving on

AS Singapore's biomedical experiment continues to bubble, more failures will come.
In fact, they are par for the course, given how Singapore is staking its future on the fruits of research.
Said Dr Wan: 'This is not an exact science. We do not claim to have a perfect formula.'
Added Dr Brenner: 'It's an episode we need to put behind us as we move on to the next thing.
'I want to get everybody back to work.'
Referring to the $82 million spent on the Johns Hopkins project, Dr Wan admitted it was a considerable amount of money, but 'against the larger backdrop, we're still on the positive side'.
Successes should not be forgotten.
The industry has burst forth from virtually nothing five years ago to contributing 5 per cent to Singapore's GDP last year.
Said Dr Brenner: 'Singapore has got to create its own brand name, and this is what we are doing.'
Of course, taxpayers' money should be well spent and every cent accounted for, particularly at a time when more money than ever - over $13.5 billion over
the next five years - is being pumped into research and development.
But the real failure would be if Singapore shied away from new partners and affairs and lost its shine in the eyes of many who now consider it a prized catch.

Farewell MJC

Farewell MJC 2006.

Life is merely about staying alive. True enough, life is all about fun, sorrow, tear and joy. Without these emotions in us, life is boring. The world will be dead. Scientists have made many predictions on when human will go into extinction. A couple of centuries or is it just a few hundred years later? The world is deteriorating and it is very well coloured by the activities of mankind.

Last Friday was my farewell assembly, the day marking the end of the two years of my college life. Time really gone by in a twinkle of an eye, from the day I was transferred to MJC to striving hard to win competitions, maintaining my 4 subs, to meeting new friends in JC2… Two years of memories were more than those in my secondary school years. First three months was a time that had left footprints in my heart. A time where I top the class, becoming super active in activities organized by the school and making lots and lots of friends, yet, that was the past. I started another life when I reached MJC. Having an obligation to have lessons to around 5pm each day has allowed me to developed feeling for a school that I was once not very fond of.

Teachers and friends are people I see more often than my parents each day. Each and everyone have their different opinions about my school which is only two years old. Being in a class filled with “TJ rejects” (that’s what we used to call ourselves), the people around me used to complain about the very minor problems about the school. I have learnt to be silent and tried to appreciate everything I have in life. That’s a perception my mother has instilled in me since young. With this, I survived through JC1, together with crazy friends like Jasmine and Kristin (my class guys were boring then).

There was a shift in people in my class as nearly ten people dropped a subject – 4 guys and 1 girl moved in. The class became more enthusiastic. Less girls- less rumours. Adding on was pinky self-high boy Edrei, blur chairman WC, always smiling KH and the science oriented + sentimental WJ. Others classmates become a little more active since then. For me, I got more nicknames and scandal. ;P

These Friday we watched videos of our 1.3/4 years in Meridian Junior College. My CCA teachers made a short clip that was extremely hilarious. They wore spectacles, shake as they sing songs. Wow. “PERK YOU! PERK ME!” Mrs Ng (nicknamed PM-purple mushroom, Phenol + FeCl3), Mdm Yati, Mrs Wong and Ms Tan are people that have trusted, praised me; and more importantly, broadened my mind of the real business world.

We then went off to class where Ms Wang gave out her final touching speech and a farewell gift (compiled class list with everyone particulars). I bought a cake to celebrate the month’s babies and gave out my self-made gifts to everyone. We told millions of photos. =) We have cake fight in class and then I had a gun fight with KH. Fun Fun Fun! People are running all around, escaping from the fact that A levels is only 20 days away.

That day, I met Mummy outside school and had lunch together.

Farewell MJC.



Crazy bunch of people!

Super Heroes.;P

mooncake festival

I was reading through my brother and ce xiang's blog. Both guys gave me inspiring thoughts and a new perspective towards Asian men - that they are sentimental people. Am I making an over-generalisation or not? Or do all human think differently when they reach adulthood? Man seems to be more sentimental than girls when it comes to wirting. Girls show their expression in their faces and the actions they do. Maybe, that's the different. Therefore, one might be overwhelmed if they find a serious guy pondering over matters about love and rommance. Hmm.

Yesterday was MOONCAKE FESTIVAL, alas, there is no moon in sight. I saw it for about 5 minutes before it disappeared. Mummy only saw it for 2 seconds before it was covered with dark clouds again. Sad. The moon is supposed to be the nearest to Earth today, but due to the haze, we going to miss the wonderful full moon again. It is all the same around the globe. It was also raining in Cadiff (UK) and Baltimore (Maryland) on this special day. Strange.

Actually, I did not do well for Perlims. I can even consider it as really bad grades. I was saddened for quite some time. Yet, I knew that now is the time to give a final boost. All of my teachers have not been worrying much for me though, they constantly remind me that I can do well for A levels. I am sure of that too. Jia you!

Mummy bought me a Mickey Mouse shorts yesterday, I loved it. Though the zipper got spoilt when I reached home and I had to travel to CS again to change for a new one.

Mugging hard for A Levels. Good luck to all who are having any examinations. ;)

PERLIM

Currently mugging hard chasing papers everyday.
Tml is Chem.
Not Much stimulation.
Email has overflowed. Almost 100 over mails.
Maths paper has proven to be the most difficult paper in my life.
Today Bio's option paper has made me even more suffocating.
It's gonna to be over.
A Levels'next.
Watch a movie.
Wrote an email to Uncle Dennis.
Time to mug again.
Cya.

Life

Life

I am actually having my study break for PERLIM exam just next Tuesday. Feeling a bit down and irritated when mum keeps nagging at me about not using the computer now. Brother Goat has left for America, starting his journey in a totally new place. Me... still locking in my room each day mugging my work that seems never-ending.

Today, I have just spent most of my time studying the chapter on growth and control. Hormones and hormones- ACTH, GH, thyroid releasing hormone, thyroid stimulating hormones, enthropins, acetonin... blah blah blah... it took me one whole night and a fresh morning.

I think i shall continue tml...
CYa.

Adding onto my birthday list

Adding onto my birthday list...

Mum hand-carried 18 Hello Kitty from Hong Kong. They were from Auntie Bonnie, celebrating my 18th Birthday. ;)

Uncle Gordon bought me 2 monkeys from McDOnald's too. They were cute. Mum also bought me a Paul Frank monkey ;D ;D

SQ sms HAppy Belated Birthday one week after my birthday. That was surprising and beyond my expectation.

PLus... Dozen of e-cards + smses

I prepared a gift for my special friend and he loved it. I felt so happy. I think life is that simple sometimes.

;D

18th Birthday

Today is my 18th birthday.
It's one of the happiest birthday I can ever have.

1) One of my oldest neighbour called me to wish me happy 18th birthday. The funny think is i dun even remember how she looks like. Yeah, we know each other when I was two. I think her image of me is when i am still very young. (maybe 6yrs old)How touched, how could someone I dun remember, remember my birthday.

2) My brother goat gave me something I have always wished for. A big soft toy. A Sheep! Love it. =) It's going to be a long time before I can celebrate my birthday with him again.

3) Mummy bought me Xie Zhi's new book. "BE resilience!" that's the book title. I will. Something I need to boost me on all the way to A level.

4) Daddy brought me to "Dong Hai" for a big seafood feast. It was SUPERB! I eat some special kind of scallop for the first time, named "zhu jie pang"?!?! =) THUMB UP!


5) My best friend pupu gave me a present wrapped in a very very cute Doraemon wrapper. We took photos of that. Thanks! The gift inside is really nice. Make my skin more smooth n soft. She said " happy birthday" to me for a million of times too.
BIG HUG:)

6) My class bought all the June n July birthday gals n guys a tasty chocolate cake! It was nice, I licked the last bit of it off the cutting knife. =)
The usual guys n gals get to crap inside LT 5 and the library today as well.
+) cheers!

7) One of my very special friend sent me a birthday certificate. I was so honoured. It was innovation, cool and touching indeed. =)

8) Li Hwei was the first to wish me Bday n want me to be less childlish! haha

9) I was in my Dad's car at a traffic light. Yan Cheng walked across the road smsing... i waved but he was so engrossed, he looked up and pointed at his phone at me. It was he who was smsing HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! how sweet. ;)

10) XP finally remembered my birthday and sms first thing in the morning. HAHA... I was surprised, he has been forgetting for so many years. Yeah, and his classmates, I think, forced him to say happy birthday in LT 5 during math lecture. =)

11) Lots of my old primary school friends wished me! ;)
All the best to my best friend LT going aboard!

12) Bought a Sweden ice cream cake to celebrate later on.

It's 9.25 pm now.
Hope that my birthday wishes come true!

Thanks for all who have given me so much happiest on my 18th birthday.
I truly enjoyed myself.
All have truly touched my heart.
Memory will linger and I will surely remembered each n everyone of u always.



WIth love,
The 18th years old Hiu Yan =)

I am finally back.

Hi. It's been a really really long time since I last blogged. Not to say to write about my own feelings. School work has been messing up my life and my very own inborn characteristic to be lazy has been on me lately. I have rather chose to watch TV then to check my ever over-flowing mail box or updating my blog. My computer's 'retard response' has also been another reason. I have tried taking up half an afternoon just loading 20 pictures for my class. Yet, for now, it would be different, my father has installed a new 'HOME NET' system and I can even have Internet access at my own free time. (previously, my Internet system can only come on when he on his computer.) Hmm... back to my own life...

I have been spending considerable of time on checking my mails and reading friendster profile for the past hours. Suddenly, I come to realise that I have not been in contact with many of them for many months or even years. It is really memorable looking at some of their familiar faces and remembering when we have first met. Some might be distinct then others but all have been able to stir the very feeling within my heart. They have given been sweet memory in one way or another. At least, I can whole-heartedly say that I have a lovely and happy childhood story.

Today, I have a will to recount my life story for the past 6 months. Let me start from the most recent weeks. Well, to start off, I am still in the midst of exams. I have been chasing papers for the past week. Two more papers to go. (Physics on Wed and Maths on Tue) Another interesting fact is that today is actually my lunar birthday. I started off my 18th birthday by studying 3 hours of biology on sexual reproduction. (from mid-night 1200-0300).Today's paper was actually considered very easy, it is just that i have not been able to remember all the terms that I have learnt that very morning. Afterall, it was not that bad, the worst was Maths. I have not been able to do the paper due to the lack of practice, that's what i need to say. Short and simple. That's it. Sometimes I am quite doubtful about myself. It was a fact that I know that if i don;t achieve all Ds for this exam, I will force to drop once again, and this time, it will be compulsory I supposed. The problem is I do not ghave the determined heart to move myself on. The feeling was not at all pleasing. I always feel some fearloithering in my soul and my mind thinking the possible outcomes of my future. Despite all this, I still found myself finding short-term peasure in fornt of the TV shouting GOAL GAOL GOAL! Maybe, I am lack of self-discipline and this always hinder me from achieving better results.

Despite knowing my problem, I am always reluctant to change. Or maybe I should lack the very motivation to change. Actually, I always do not want to be above others, I prefer to be surrounded by people who have better qualities than me. This gives me a feeling of being protected and a sense of priceless sercurity. Yet, I know I am always strive hard to keep up with one another conversation and in order to make myself presentable. I think this is the reason that keep me studying. Life is so complicated.

Now, let's us move to January 2006. This year I am glad to say that a new batch of people moved into my class. It makes my class at least to say, more lively. I knew great people. 4 big guys and 1 sweet and blur girl. =) I knew them better through my first class outing with them. (a 6 people gathering rather than class outing actually.)I did two new thing that very day. One is riding a two people bicycle and found out that Wei Chee has a has a bad sense of balancing. Wei Jun taught me how to brake and the most funniest thing was that he did not know I was nuts at it. I fall falt on my face once i stood on my brakes. I tripped for trillions of times that day... hahah.. but it was very very fun.

It was school and school then. With Gp tuition every weekend.
To be continued.....

Blood Donation

Blood Donation

I went for my first blood donation today.
It was my brother's will. He has been persuading me to go for the past few months. Yeah, and now he gets what he wanted. =)
This morning after my tuition class with ce xiang, we took a heavy meal and rushed to the HSA. Brother goat nearly crahed into the Taxi on the expressway which stopped in front of him.

Reached there at around 1450, the place was flooded with people - not the same as I supposed it to be. Hmm. I thought it could be deserted. Didn't know there were so much kind soul in Singapore.

I was so blur at the place. I mean real blur. Brother Goat asked me to pack up a form myself while he parks the car. So I went in alone, loithered for a few sentence and picked up a form that was on a stack on forms on the information counter. The moment I did that, I realised that it was the a filled up form by other donators. OOPPSSS>...it placed it back. A guy stared at me. Sort of embarrassed.

Hmm. Then BOther Goat came in so happily and mummy called to see whether I was there. I handed in the form and sat there and waited.

"Lai Hui Yan", the lady at the counter shouted.
Is my handwriting that bad? Nevermindm at least I know it's me.
Handed in my IC, sat down, stood up and took back my IC. Does they have a better system then this? I began to wonder.

"Lau HUi YAn", an INdian guy shouted. Better this time. At least, he was the doctor I supposed. He asked me stupid questions.
"You know what is AIDS? HOw is spreaded? Have you taken any medication? DO you have sex with your boyfriend for the past months?"
I smiled at the last question and he looked up at me. "you do?" he asked. Well, it's a definite no. My smile widened.

Next stop- COUNTER 5.
THere was this guy who sitting there. I glanced around like a lost goat again. Decide to sit down with my form in my hand before a nurse called me to place the paper into a basket on counter 5. I did as followed. Sat down. Felt real bored. Stood up and went to took my bag -- and my brother followed me to the seats at counter 5.

"Ms LAu.."
"Yup." I went towards the nurse. Hmm. She poked my finger. Squeeze and squeeze the blood out of the tiny fourth finger of mine into a thin capillary tube.
That was pain. Yet, interesting, she just needed a drop of blood which she later descended it into a beaker of copper sulphate solution that is already filled with haemoglobin.
JUst wondering what is she doing?

Yeah, then I went into blood donation group. THe chair was huge and seemed comfortable. Chose one empty chair between two person and rolled in. Hmm. Rolled in.
Sat there and I was being neglected for quite a long time before I was being served.

My hand was cold then- I think It was due to the air-conditioning, although Brother GOat might argue that it was due to fear.
The yellow- coated nurse placed tightened my forearm with a 'cover', started tapping my arm and rubbing my arm with some yellow anticeptic solution.
Yup, then she went off. Any nurse came and gave me the first 'ject'. I got a feeling of ant biting me and it all went numb.
Anyother large needle was inserted into me and my blood was pump into five different tubes before it was connected into the blood donation 'packet'.
Haha. The packet lie on a scale which move up and down, up and down.
I looked at it with amusement. Like a baby being so curious about stuffs.

I saw the packet getting bigger and bigger. THat's my blood! =)
I saw my blood win such a large quantity for the first time.

WOW! it then all ended. Went for some refreshment.
Went to money changer to change some swiss franc for my brother and brought two CD.
Off home.
=)

Charming Guy part 2

CHarming Guy PArt 2

This is what I do research on to destress myself.(currently studying for block test)
Leon Jay Willian.
A professional Model.
A charming guy.
Look into his eyes.
Hear him from Ming Dao...
And you know what, his birthday fall on the same day as a guy I like. =) Hmm...

Another charming guy!

Watch Tian Guo De Jia Yi!!!!

Say WOW!

Say WOW!
Another charming guy!

School Life

There is a reason why I have not been blogging lately. One word. School. This sounds boring. But actually school life was not bad after all except for all those tests and SPA. Yet, tests after tests really blow my head off. It makes me feel sick and feel like quitting school all of a sudden. I have this urge to get myself out of this thing one and for all. Horrible feeling.

If not for my newly formed crappy class plus crappy friends, I couldn't have managed myself. We were playing this angle and mortal game and everyone was laughing theit head off. The funny thing was that Wei Jun get bluffed. HAHAHA! The consequences of shunning me too much. =) Dun think that there is no link between the tow. There is a link. Hmmm....

It was also first time in my life that I bought something for the whole class this Valentine's Day. I printed photos for everyone. Hmm... Another long story.
Actually, my class guys only told me to draw one Doraemon pic for Ms Wang and print one photo for the photo frame. Then, when I reached White Sand with WJ, I found that they got the wrong file and we went up to the library to try to change the file type but to no avail. haiz...
Then I found myself talking about some 'statistics' about 'kings and wifes' with WJ on the train.
Reached home - brother was not back from driving lessons and so I went out to print the photos. Somemore, I can't print the instant photos and therefore resorted to wait for 15 mins and more for the manufactured one.

Need to go to bed..
Three tests coming up next week..
Need to replenish and study tml..
Cya

Viruses Infection

Viruses Infection

I never get myself away from viruses. They are irritating stuffs. I don't know why I always get hooked onto it. This morning I woke up and I was feeling this burning sensation in my tummy. Bad. I sat on the toilet bowl for so long till I was chased out. My brother had to go back to army camp and my Dad has to send me first to school. So there he was rusing me out. My butt burnt and I couldn't even sit down. My muuny says it is the feeling like when you are about to give birth. I rushed on my breakfast and dressed myself up. Then I sat on the toilet bowl again. Nothing came out. I talked, complaint and try not to concentrated on it.

Jung Pu was already waiting downstair. I told her what happened and she fell asleep in the car after that. I kept on smsing. Distract myself from the pain. Weird kind of pain. Later when I got out of the car, I rushed with Pupu to the toilet. It didn't help. I came out and walked around the school. Yet, the buring sensation just get stronger and stronger.

I decided to go home. Took a taxi and paid $8.40. Went to the doctor in pain and laughed with my mummy. Slept for 4 hours, ate and here I am typing. Bad day.



But new year was cool. I spend my new year eve with all my StJohn seniors. Waited for half an hour for Fish and Cod but walked out after getting seated as they only served Fesita Meal which is double the original price. We all brought a Winnie the POoh, Piglet or Tigglet chain for ourselves. (the kind where u drop your coin and turn)

We then went to Taka to eat. Stood and eat. But it was fun anyway. The guys went off first. How gentlemen! We all complaint. Let's shake our head and say, "ZOne 2 St John guys, HAIZ...".

My senior is going overseas to study medicine. Good Luck and all the best...

PERKCAFE opened on 12th Jan. Mrs Ng said it was the best event since the start of MJ. Really? I dun know. She is so proud of it.
But my hard work do paid off.
Heard one J1 said that Biz Club was the best CCA in the school. WOW! I never thought of that. Wait till they see the teacher.
No one would believe that I joined it beacause I thought it would be slack.
11th Jan, I went home at 0830 because of biz club. Arr. How can I be so committed.
haha... and poor SQ spent his whole birthday with biz too. Should have celebrated or sth...

Now everyone knows I am in Biz. The video shows it all. I am appearing everywhere. Well, actually Biz is not that bad. It's just the teacher. But maybe that's how it grows afterall. So contradictory. Yet, the good thing is, I don;t mind to be a Biz club member.

Went to the "Ray of Light" for duty last Sunday. Saw Xiang Le. He told me that Adriana was smoking and drinking. It's really hard to believe though. I also did some marketing, helped to sell quite a lot of books.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

This week is the due of all admin forms. Hope everything will be fine. I have spent too much of time on it.

The time table for this year is disastrous. It is just meant to kill my health. I am ending at 5 everyday except for friday which is 1615.

MJC is full of stress. Even the canteen holders are stressed. Ms Lai went around looking at the bins and take note of what we throw away. And if she see a lot of vege thrown that day, she would go to the store and say, "your vege is very badly cooked today." Maybe, we should not complaint too much about about our food. Now, the stall holders are under observation. One has even left after an interview with our principal.
But that's doesn't mean they do not have to improve on their cooking. Oops...

My Daddy has been jogging around the house yesterday. Funny.

Brother showed me his army photos and asked me to comment on his mates. Cute. We laughed like witches.

Two tests coming up. I got to do my tutorials.

Hope the viruses in me has lost the battle to my antbodies.

Luv ya.

Christmas

I got up!
Made two personalised items for Jp and my dear teacher-- Ce Xiang. Yeah, considered to be Christmas presents. It looked quite nice, too bad i didn't have time to take a picture of that.

I have English tuition after that.
Ended at about 12 noon and out family went to the STAR WAR exhibition at science centre.

rush home and made a great christmas meal for mummy. FIRST TIME. It seems so cool. She was very happy.

Blog

Blog

Hi! Haven't been blogging for quite some time. My Dad just said that it is not safe to write my diary on the net, he just had this terrible experiences that the server will be down and everything will be gone. Well, I never thought of that. Will blogspot.com ever shut down? If yes, it would be nightmare to most.

Christmas time was fun.

Christmas Eve -- Went out with some primary schools mates and end up trapped in Orchard Road. We see Singapore snowed for the first time in my life. Everywhere was a chaos. Herlina just went crazy and said that she couldn't even smile. Haha. Before that, we went all the way to Marina Bay for steamboat dinner. My whole shirt smelled like charcoal after that. The whole place were 'flooded' with steam. =)

P.S. and Guo Hong just refused to gel the hair for Gerald in front of us. They argued over the topic for almost half an hour. So, I just took a pic with them.




This is a precious photo that few can actually capture it.
Tsung Wei and Spencer together. Questionable? Anyway, Tsung Wei still think I am a guy. Arr...




TO be continued... ...
Yeah, we went to Marina Bay to have steam boat after that. YT went to meet his eight other goddness. When we left it was quite late. We set off to somerset and walked to Orchard. Everything was in a chaos. We can only squeeze our way through. Policemen were attacked with forms that is supposed to look like snow. We were attacked too. Herlina screamed in silence. I laughed. Kang Yong says that Singaporean are mad. The two other guys--- are they enjoying it? I don't know.

It was also the first time I need to line up to get into a MRT station. Horrible!!!!
The others went to the park for count down and I went home. Mummy slept and Daddy rushed out to show me the SHHHH sign. =)

See the squid!! CUTE!!!

Great Leaders.

Hope we can all learn something from this =)

Teaching, Inspiring and Motivating Leaders

Apply Pressure

There are two kinds of pressure: The kind you feel and the kind you
apply.

John Fox

A very successful colleague of mine commented the other day that,
although his mother and father both had high blood pressure, he did
not. He said he has always wondered why he had not inherited it.
Another colleague quickly responded that it was because he was a "high
blood pressure carrier." "You'll never develop high blood pressure
because you
are so busy giving it to others," he said. Indeed much of my
colleague's tremendous success over his many years of law practice has
been due to his ability to apply so much pressure to those around him,
that he doesn't feel pressured himself.

Great leaders are masters of applying pressure and not feeling
affected by it. They always seem to be one step ahead of others. They
anticipate where things are moving and get there before the
competition. They spend much more time creating change than they do
reacting to it. They give
subordinates plenty of challenging assignments rather than waiting for
them to ask for work. They understand that the best defense is a
strong offense and attack difficulties before they grow out of
control.

Do you feel more pressure than you apply? Are you leading change and
innovation or constantly reacting to the changes and innovation of
others? What could you do differently in your daily schedule to begin
applying pressure and not feeling affected by it?

Plan, prepare and execute your daily plan this week in a way that
enables you to begin spending more time initiating action rather than
reacting to the actions of others. Anticipate where things are going
and work smarter each day to get there before the competition. Begin
applying more pressure while not letting pressure affect you.


Hmm. Things are here for me to learn. A 17 going on 18 little girl. Yan Yan =)

NCO camp 2005

NCO camp 2005


Loads of things happened after my take over as a corp officer. Things weren't that smooth that I thought it could be. I have learnt and realised quite a lot of things. Conflict among humans, management, and the will power to withstand anger, unfairness and authority.

The waves occurred last week have finally been settled. A little encouragement from Mervyn really does make me happy.

Followed on will the NCO camp 2005 on the 8th of December.
It was memorable! Not to say very happy but the elements of fun, joy, sadness, anger, tiredness and sometimes loniness have made it all so complete.

First day --- it was supposed to be the preparation of the campsite and all the admin stuffs. Well, I was the assisstant admin and was really 'lucky' that it was to be in charge of all the typing, papers and money. No fun at all. Yet, I enjoyed the part where me, Aveline, Wei Lun and Choon Yuan were working together pasting newspaper on the window. That was entertaining! See how bored I am that day.
Later, me and the two guys sat down with the instructors and talked craps. Stuffs about cadets, rich kids and religions. Hmmm.
Sir Angus told me to go out to buy dinner so off i went with a pile of money in my back pocket. I found some joy with the cats on the way and back at the campus. Wei Lun was playing with one of the kittens and when we put him back into the bushes, it just followed him back. Haha. That was cute.

Second day --- boring day. Cadets falling in for first parade and it started raining. I was in charge of carrying all their valuables and sorting out of the admin stuffs and consficated items. Didn't really know what happen after that. Cadets have their lectures and stuffs. Oh yeah... I went for bunk check, this time I was not so strict, just dig out their bags and scolded one and two of them.

SUPPER TIME


Third day --- it was hiking at Pulau Ubin. I didn't go for the hike. I was put as the over- all in charge back in Bedok View. WOW! The school was mine with two others and casualties. I slept for a while, played cards with choon yuan, typed out the minutes for the previous meeting and went out to buy lunch. After lunch, I actually talked rubbish with the cadets and taught them how to make a double star using a rubber band. Amazed they were. Me too! >< At night, I got a chance to move out of the campus in the ambulance. I was told to accompany Siang Yee home. She was sick obviously. That night, I even found out that Sir Angus was my senior of Bedok South Primary. Haha. He was the 1991 badge if I did not remember wrongly. We have meeting until 2 sth midnight after that.

Fourth day --- the most unforgettable moment of my life.
It was my brother's birthday. I booked at around 0920 and went back home for GP tuition. After that me and family went to LONG BENCH to have seafood. GOOD FOOD! Chilli crabs, salad prawns, fish, plus plus plus... I love it.
Went back to campus at around two sth. They were having their team building games.
It was the best part of the whole camp. They need to satisfy us in order to get ROAR CARDS! ROAR CARDS... it makes me high... (those who know me know how horrible i can get) I make the cadets scream, shout and dance. They got entertained as well as me too. SUPERB. i love the centaur group. they were the best. =)

That night was campfire night. And I am the MC of the day. WOW... the campfire rocks because I am in there. But silly me has made a very silly mistake that ruined up my whole emotion. I have mixed up the camp commander and chairman. Sirs and mdms were sort of frustrated. It made me sad. I cried. Though they praised me later for my job well done. I think it was great, I meant real great besides that terrible mistake. A pat on my own shoulder. It has been my first and very best campfire.

Many people cried that day. Mdm Pei Pei got so miserable when Christina told her that she was going to quit. Regina cried beacuse she was too stressed up.
I have meeting till 0300 sth midnight.
I was the DO (duty officer) the next day. I got to plan my timetable. Together with Sir Han Wee, we walked around the whole school -- planning the area cleaning programme next day (that day). Slept at around 0445 and woke up at 0515.
It was the first time I have so little sleep. Terrible.

Asked cadets to fall in the morning and all I remember was that I kept scolding and scolding. I think the course IC of the day was quite stressed up too. haha. The cadets owned about 350 jumping jacks and I have managed to clear 90 that morning. Success.

Everything went smoothly after that. =) Wee...
At least, I was not blur. =)
Break camp! We wrote autographs for eachother.



Me as an officer. Too much of a reponsibility. I might be getting tired but I know that you guys are there to boost me on =)

A real world is a messed up place - maybe i am just experiencing the glimpse of it

A real world is a messed up place - maybe i am just experiencing the glimpse of it

St. John is a messed up place. I am pissed now. Very pissed.
I have planned to scold all of you and here you are giving me more reasons to do so.
One time. Second time. And here is it the third time.
I just think it is funny.
Who on Earth will one inform the (in-charge of the meeting) last on the list?
This is horrible, what if I am not free?

I maybe a goat. Too kind-hearted for some reasons. Yeah. But I am an unhappy goat lately. Thanks to them.
I have gone to NCO course, wasting half of my time.
Then back in my corp, things are just not going straight.
I have been reprimanding them every time I go back.
It is not me. I am going a bit nuts on this shit.
A challenge for me huh?! Well, I am going to accept this challenge.
Me- Corp office in charge. I am not going to see it ruin out. At least, not now.

I am not supposed to thinking about this stuffs. Yet, it is just pouring over me.
Maybe I shall not think too much as Mervyn has said.

My junior just called me at 9 sth to inform me about the change.
Yesterday I was just having some emotional ups and downs due to some Benjamin's theory.

Things are all messed up.
Nothing is right. This is not okay.
Or is it that bad?

Well, I have thought of a good idea. Giving BB a name. A very professional name. One problem solved. Here comes another. Pissed.

But maybe, that's what life is all about.

It's an experience. A true experience.

Last Friday

What did I do this week?

Recalling...

Last Friday.

I went to school in the morning for some stupid photo taking. Supposedly everyone from Biz Club was supposed to turn up, but as usual nobody did. Lucky, Zhen Sheng, another non-exco member, was there to crap with me. He is guy that really looked like Ka Cheong. It seems like they have the same face, only a bit thinner.

I left around 0930 and went back to TMS for St. John. I taught the juniors bed bathing and was happy that they were enlightened. Yet, another frustrating happened. The NCOs ordered the Sec. 1 to clean up the pigeonholes at the side and then they went off. I looked at the holes. What on earth is happening? Do they consider this neat? I knelt down start packing myself? Nobody bothered. Anger started to build up. I restrained. Then I found three St. John berets stuffed together with a dirty sock.

I stood up, stared at them. "Do you know your beret is something that you should respect, and you all just stuff here with some sock for the juniors to see?". I went rambling on and took them to pack the holes NICELY for me. They tried maybe but to no avail. I picked out a bag of helmets and found piles of clothes beneath the bag. "Do you all pack thing just by looking on the surface? Do you understand the meaning of neat? If you don't, how do you expect your junior to know what to do?" I started scolding again. Arrr. That was the last time I am packing the room. I said that. Yet, I don't so. We will see.

Afternoon, I went to Auntie Anna's house. My mum and friends were having a party there. Lots and lots of dumplings. WOW! I socialize with all of them. Chatted and laugh my head out. It was fun. My mother was mad as usual. Giggling and showing some funny Yoka style. Then another moment, they were talking 'yellow' and some other experiences they have with their husbands. An afternoon with a gang of Aunties was fun. I don't mind another. Haha.

Went home at around 4sth and Bjorn SMS me. I was shifted to the third shift for ice-cream selling. That's mean I no need to go to school early and I have a chance to crap with zhen sheng again. Good. So off I went to sleep before I woke up at 0630.

Oops! Bash start at 0700 and Jasmine told me to meet them at 0610. Everything was off timing. I drank some soup, dressed up and rushed out.

Reached school at 7 something for bash. Meet up Jasmine and Kristin, got high with Jo Jo for something and sold ice cream.

Details of it...let me account on another day.

Got to sleep. St. John early morning tomorrow. Cya!

Recalling Primary six days...

Just finished reading my own blog and other people blog's entries. Interesting stuffs. Maybe I would become more interesting as I grow older. It feels funny reading my primary six diary now. What do I know about love then? And there I was rambling on stuffs about love.

Talking about primary six, it was a wonderful year with lots of ups and downs, joy and tears and some really beautiful memories.

Remember our school shifted to Chai Chee that year due to the rebuilding of our old school compound. Bedok South Primary School only left three years of ages. Sob. I was forced to take the school bus to school. My mum never allowed me to step out or into the house alone then. Not until I reached Secondary 3. So I was the oldest on the bus, and that's when I learn how to play Pokemon card with those Primary Two Kids.

Back then, I have a very good friend which I lost contact for now. Her name is Liu Ting. We went to the library nearly every recess. Going to the comic corner where we have to take out our shoe to entry that 'reading area'. Haha. There were a lot of soft toys there and we played and talked to it almost everyday. We even pull out the cotton of the soft toy and hide it in corners of the library. As for the cotton, we termed it as "eggs of the soft toy". Sometimes, we go down and join the others which I could always initiate the game 'crocodile'. We didn't play as much as we did back in the old compound. Area constraint? Or did we grow older? I don't know about others, but I feel the same except for my face, which looked more decent, and with more pimples on it.

My teacher liked me a lot because she liked my smart brother a lot. Yet, I was once pulled to the principal for interrogation. Actually, our teacher appointed us to guard our classroom for a period of time due to some robbery cases, but there was this problematic guy who reported to the teacher and say that his pencil box was lost and suspected that we steal it. So we were pull to see the VP. Sound funny.

Primary six. It was also the year I start to get infatuated the first time in my life. Never know what was it back then, so I termed it 'love' in my diary as I mentioned. I think everyone who is in the same class know who he is. It was actually my classmates who said we match that I started liking him. I think I didn’t realize much of it back then too. But I remembering him calling me and me being nagged at by my mum just slammed the phone. I was sad each time I did that. It hurts actually. Never mind about it. It's the past. He is two years older than me and was in primary 4back then. Now, I suppose he is going to the secondary four next year. Hmm. All the best to him.

Other memories shall linger in my mind, my heart for as long as it could.

SURPRISE!

Surprise! I never thought I would design such a template. Thanks to Lily who helped me along. It's now 0237 midnight. I have lingered over the thing for almost 2hours and a half. Lucky that my effort was not gone to waste, I have at least learnt something - how to design this NICE template with MINGDAO my sweet heart. MELTED!!!
I found a website where you can find his and 183 club video and MTV. Amazing that someone just designed that webpage. A kiss to who ever she or he is.

Copy and paste this link and watch the other ending of PRINCE TURN INTO FROG.
It really makes my heart throb. I dun want Shan Jun Hao to end up this way. SOB!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=6YxFJpu1kro&search=wang%20zi%20bian%20qing%20wa%20fan%20wai%20pian%20183Club%207F%20mingdao%20shaowei%20xiaoqiao%20qiaoen%20ending


Sleeping now... uploading photos of JC bash will be still under construction.
Lazy me.

zzz.zzz.

THINK

Sometimes, I feel that it is interesting to sit down and reflect on the way we think. While most of the times, we will be wondering why we are thinking this way. It’s strange. Why? Our environment, the culture we are exposed to or even our genes, affects us. Hmm. Read the following extract. It makes the world more complex. It made me more sophisticated. At least, it proves that I am grown up. Yet, I like to remain childish. Confused mind. End off

A Simple Wisdom:
the possibility of being wrong

by Stephen B. Waters

Sometimes, even when you think you are right, you are not.You think you're right, not because you are right, but simply because you think you're right

For who has ever considered himself lacking in sense?

That would be a self-contradictory proposition. Lack of sense is a disease that never exists when it is seen; it is most tenacious and strong, yet the first glance from the patient's eye pierces it through and disperses it, as a dense mist is dispersed by the sun's beams.

There never was a street-porter or silly woman who was not sure of having as much sense as was necessary. We readily recognize in others a superiority in courage, physical strength, experience, agility, or beauty. But a superior judgment we concede to nobody. And we think that we could ourselves have discovered the reasons which occur naturally to others, if only we had looked in the same direction.

You need to be right, because your best future depends on it. You plan your future according to the map of reality you carry in your mind. You need that map as accurate as can be. You depend on it.So how do you know when you are wrong? That's what friends are for. That's why people converse. That's why we write things. Writing freezes each thought for further scrutiny from any side. In the light of a new morning, we see if our ideas make the same sense they seemed to make the night before

If one learns from others but does not think, one will be bewildered. If, on the other hand, one thinks but does not learn from others, one will be in peril.

[Confucius]I'll run to the truth and embrace it as soon as I see it coming.

[Montaigne]Make this simple wisdom your own or the real driving force to learn is missing

Neoprint

Neoprint took at Heren last Sunday at a 4/1 gang gathering.
On request by Lily.

Ming Dao- My Perfect Valentine!

Something I must really share!!!!

明道，可能没听过吧？
但真得很帅！开始时喜欢他扮演的角色，后来喜欢他本人，他出身于菜市场，为了帮助家里，到电视台作主持人主持《冒险王》，获得金钟奖，后来参演天国的嫁衣，崭露头角，第二部戏《王子变青蛙》创下台湾最高收视纪录。下面是我转帖别人的。
明道，一个爱收集花花内裤的男人，会因为见到大包的内裤而兴奋，会因为别人送他内裤毫不吝啬的给他拥抱的古怪男人。
明道，一个敢于冒险的男人，他坚韧不拔，在生关头还会笑着说“刺激”的纯金男人。
明道，一个爱哭的男人，会因为想妈妈而哭，像个长不大的孩子，立志要做刘德华的歌曲代言人“男人哭吧哭吧不是罪，尝尝阔别已久眼泪的滋味......”
明道，他赢了，他打破了不朽神话，成为最年轻的金钟奖得主，可是在成就背后是无尽头的付出，这是他应的的。
明道，一个出身菜市场的孩子，与其说是上天眷顾这个孩子，不如归功与奋斗，他用自己的手打拼自己的天下，现在他红了，自己做出的努力见到了成效，他得到了别人的认可，人们愿意随着这个菜市场小孩看世界，同时也证明了不是出身名门的人，同样可以拥有自己的一片天，而且会更大，更蓝....
明道，你一路走来，变的成熟，七年前《我猜》中那个穿着蓝色背背裤的羞涩小男生，对主持人一句“你很想红啊”都无力反驳，因为你不是他们口中说的“SUPER STAR”现在呢？面对同样的主持人，你不会在让她牵着你走。
明道，你随剧组漂洋过海，你见证过一场美丽爱情的归宿，你感受过世界第一道曙光，同样的，你也曾挣扎在生死的瞬间，可是你却可以坦然的一笑而过，是不是真的“紧要关头不放弃，绝望就会变成希望？”
明道，你是那么完美，完美到不可挑剔。是《冒险王》塑造了你坚强？还是“海诺”演绎了心中另一个你？无论是冒险王明道，还是《天国》里那个明道，又或许是诠释两个不同阶层人物生活的明道，在你身上总是散发着无穷的能量，我搞不清楚你的磁场有多大！
现在，一个令每一个女孩都为之倾倒的单均昊，一段让人发自内心的失去记忆最初的爱，这次你赢了 ，你带走的不仅仅只是一个奖杯，还有每一个人的心。
明道，你到底想要怎样？你给我们下了最幸福的迷魂计，可是每一次你都只给我们维系一周生命的解药，可是药用完了，我们该怎么办？
明道同学，现在我将正式以“侵占罪”对你提起控诉，你强行占有本人心中4/3的空间，这可能回致使我到了五十岁依然孤单，现在我你赔偿我的青春，精神损失3万，并且惩罚你爱你的FANS一辈子。

“没有你，我该怎么办？”
“神啊，救救我吧......”

By one of his fans!!!

I am getting crazy too!!!

Some Updates

Some updates on my life lately.

Let me start from the last day of school which is last Friday. Our 'stylish' principal come into the hall and gave an unexpectedly short speech. She just said that we were better than last badge and that the teachers were full of praises for us. Boring. I always thought her scoldings was better. More funny at least. After which, all the 4As students were to remain behind, we were told that we need a total 'A' level point of 45 and a pass in all 4 subjects in order to maintain our 4 sub. I felt an uneasiness in me at that moment. I didn't get good grades. Is it enough to make up to 45 points? Confused. Frustration and a little bit of frighteness was in me.=p I reached for my result slip in container classroom 2 1 hour later and glared down at the middle column. Oh no! I got 44.5 points! Haha, I laugh at myself. I am always on the border line case. Who would have dream of such points? How? I asked Ms Wang. She said that she will put me under "the special case". Then, she went on saying that my grades were quite stagnant(actually is just chem and bio) and said that I would have do much more better with 3 subjects.
Final conclusion: 44.5 = 45 , so my subjects remain but it also mean that i need to work harder and stop current interest -slacking. =)

Saturday - send my parents off to London. Left me and brother.
Sunday - Primary school gang came at around 3 pm and stayed until 11 pm. We played squash, play bridge, eat pizza, celebrated all our birthdays and compared each other legs. Fun day it is. Nice feelings meeting old friends. Here are some photos.







On Tue- Jung Pu came and stay over at my house. Watched movie, sleep, talk and I got to learn the guitar for the first time. WOW! Here a pic on my bed. =)






The sad thing is I need to go to school on Monday, wednesday and friday for Project Work. But it is also the reason I couldn't go to London. SOB!

Yeah, I am enjoying myself now.

And one more thing, Ming dao from 183 Club rocks, he is my white prince.=) Watch Prince Become Frog at 0700 every Wed, Thurs and Fri. =)

明道



本名：林朝章
生日：1980/02/26
星座：雙魚座
血型：O型
身高：180cm
體重：70kg
語言：國、英、台
興趣：玩車、吉他
專長：表演、主持

PW

Just finish some part of my PW. Not a complete set is done. I am too sleepy to type. I do not like PW! Arr... I really need to sleep. CYa!

Miracle do happen

It's midnight 100am. I have been sleeping too much just now. Hmm... Drift off to yesterday's morning.

My first period was Math lecture. I have got a B for Mathematics. Far too much mistakes I have made. Carelessness is always within my sight. When can I kick it out totally from my life? Is "Never" the word? I hope not. My A levels are not far away.

Next period was interesting. We are going to receive our Physics paper. I thought I was going to fail. Yet, my brother has this strange thinking that I would not. Strange. Half of the whole cohort failed and I am always the majority. I never pass my tests, the best I got was an AO. Sad. At least, I pass my mid- year, I told myself.

My heart was not pumping normally and my hands are freezing.
"Tutors, you can give out Section A now!" Our cute Physics teacher, Mr Se, said.
I turned to my right and stared at the piles of paper. Last paper. Faster can.
It works. Paveen accidentally slipped out my paper while taking hers. I got mine first.
I flipped to the front and looked at my marks. 75/150. Did I pass? My whole mind was blank. I could not even do simple calculation. I was stunned for a moment. I thought for a while. I passed with a D. Later, they announced the deduction marks was not counted, so I got 51%. Not a very magnificent grade. But to me, it was a success. At least, for Physics it is.
I SMS 3 very important person. Daddy, brother goat and nick.
CONGRATULATION! They typed.
Daddy wanted me to work harder from now on. Okay! I would promise myself to that.

I passed every subject. This was a miracle. Something I never would have expected. Am I being lucky or something? My favourite quote, "Luck is when preparation meets opportunity." Maybe, I have good luck this time. Here, thanks to all who have helped me and encouraged me in this promotional exams. =)

However,I could not express or celebrate this joy. My friends have not done as they wished. They are disappointed. They cried. I felt that I am helpless. I can only console and pray for the best for them. Stay strong, my friends. All of you are going to make it. I am here to give you my blessings. Remember me and smile! =)
JIa YOU!

As I final conclusion, I scored a BDDD. Not something eye- catching but it meant something to me. Four subjects to go in J2. Be strong I must be too. I managed to keep up to your promise, my dear brother.

Ending off. 0130
Smile Always n think positively. Sth to all my friends all there.

Unforgettable moments!

Today is a special day. I did something I never thought of doing in my college days. Oh my God! This is getting on my nerve.

I did something that I would not explain.

Heart pumping.

End off.

True freedom

Someone sent me this, i thought it was very meaningful. Esp: To hope is to risk despair, and to try is to risk failure. But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing. All the best to everyone in the future no matter what it may hold. And remember, don't be afraid to take risks! =)
All the best!


True Freedom
True freedom can only be achieved by taking risks. No moment can be truly savoured, no life genuinely touched, without putting your ego and emotions on the line.
To experience fully is to yield completely. And in surrendering ourselves, we inevitably run the risk of wounding our pride or breaking our hearts.
But what is life, if not a series of experiences? each one capable of changing our lives in profound ways?
An unknown author writes about the risks we should take, in order to truly experience life?
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk being called sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk showing your true self.
To place your ideas and your dreams before a crowd is to risk being called naive.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair, and to try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and love and live.
Chained by things that are certain, he is a slave.
He has forefeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks is truly free.
POEM BY UNKNOWN AUTHOR

Graduation

I finally Graduated As AN officer….Grade 6….This is my group Nov. A group that is full of fun individuals...gonna miss you guys very much!!!

My feelings

My spirit has been dampened this few days. I am not getting good grades for all my tests. Physics, Chemistry, Biology, although they have been able to get out of the F region, AO and D still lingered around. This is sad. At least, it made me sad. Have I been working hard? Is there something wrong with my studying techniques? Or am I too nervous during the test? What’s wrong? Questions came popping into my mind. I am skeptical about myself. I doubt what I do is right. Or is it that I am having too much of an expectation? Yet, I know that I have not reach my limits. I can do better. I tried to believe in myself. However, I doubt this trust. I doubt my belief. It seems like I am losing confidence. I need to help myself to pick up. Despair. Misery. Melancholy. These words should be out of my mind, out of my soul. It’s only two weeks to promotional exams and I am going to strike hard and put in my best effort.

“Work harder ar, Hiu Yan!” Ms Wong said. I will. I will try my best at least.
And now, I am here to tell myself, “I am going to promo with all my four lovely core subjects!” This is going to come true. I need to have faith in myself.
Good luck to all my friends who are taking their exams in the near ‘future’ to come.



P.S Obstacles are what you see when you loss sight of your goal.
Stay focus, work smartly and work towards your goals.

A’s all the way! =)

Batman Begins

Actually, we planned to go and watch 5566 that night. However, we turn out watching movie, The Batman Begins in the middle of Padang. My friend gave me the wrong information. One word. Frustrating. At least, I got to see Li Hwei. =) luv ya baby

POor Kitty

This is some crap stuffs from a crap website that might be useful for writing in essay...

Recent research, reported in The Scotsman and other news corporations, shows that the keeping of unmodified cats puts people at risk of a host of debilitating mental disorders:

US scientists have found evidence that cats really do drive people mad.

Researchers from Baltimore's Johns Hopkins University say their findings show keeping a furry pet can lead to schizophrenia, manic depression and even permanent brain damage.
(this is sth coming from my brother further university...hope he don't come up with such 'useful' findings in the years to come ;p)

Dr Robert Yolken and his colleague, Dr Fuller Torrey, who have conducted years of tests, believe a parasite found in cat faeces called toxoplasma gondii infects the human brain.

Worryingly, pregnant women who contract the parasite, can transmit it to the foetus, with devastating effects on brain development.


Adopted from: www.bonsaikitten.com

how can anyone do that to an animals? Treating the cat like a BArbie Doll... come on, I am not fighting for animal's rights, but it is really inhumane for us to do it. Some people might be right, animals do not have morality, they do things accourding to their innate nature, but by doing this ( putting the kitten in a plastic bottle and box and star at it for pleasure), does it shows that we have morality too? ...Crap their argument...what kind of logic is that...I don;t mine you eat them, or kill them straight, but just don't take away their freedom like walking around in an open space....

YaH....Thanks that we have such artistic people around....

P.S Definition of Schizophrenia

Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is often associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and may have an underlying genetic cause.

A situation or condition that results from the coexistence of disparate or antagonistic qualities, identities, or activities: the national schizophrenia that results from carrying out an unpopular war.

My PRIMARY SIX Composition....:)

This was how I write back then in Primary six... Don't tell me it's not much different from now..haha...ENJOY!

The Day I Was Lost In The Shopping Mall
I will never forget what had happened that day. It was a Monday morning. The weather was extremely hot. My mother was too tired to make breakfast and so she brought me, a five years old girl, to the nearby shopping mall.
After their delicious breakfast, my mother went into the 'XY Book Store' to browse at some magazines and thrilling books. As I had no interest in reading books, I stood there like a robot. I soon became very bored and irritated, so I slipped out of the shop and went to the toyshop next door to amuse myself.
I jumped up and down while looking at the toys and was overjoyed when I saw a fascinating toy gun, I attempted to get the toy from the shelf but I could not, as it was too high. I jumped again. I could reach it this time but I knocked hard against the gun and it fell to the hard, marble ground, making a very loud and deafening sound.
I was sure enough that I would be punished. However this time it was not my mother, it was a tall and skinny saleswoman. She gave me an unblinking stare and brandished her fist to show her anger. I looked up reproachfully.
"Sorry… … Madam," I stammered as I apologized.
I felt nerves and worried as I shuffled out of the shop. I was terrified. I tried to recall where my mother was. I looked around. All I could see was a group of people smoking and I heard them saying strings of vulgarities. They looked pugnacious. Others were women and children busy shopping and chatting away. I was hopelessly lost.
At that moment, his eyes were filled with tears and drops of perspiration rolled down his cheek. I shouted for mummy but was hastily shushed. Every passer-by frowned and stared at me, but none was willing to help. I had an uncanny feeling that I was being watched.

"You had better made an announcement," said Mr. Tan, a guard at the shopping mall, in a very respectful manner. I looked down onto the carpet. My body shivered and my teeth chattered. I didn't answer. What I hoped for was my mother. Mr. Tan did not wait long. He held my hand and led me to the information counter. That did my heart good, as I knew I was safe.
"What is your name?" asked Mr. Tan. I shrugged and looked at him, but replied in a soft voice, "Hiu Yan".
"A girl called Hiu Yan who is wearing a blue T-shirt is lost. Her parents can come to the information counter at level one to collect her! A girl……!" a metallic voice croaked.
About a minute later, I could see my mother from a distance. I was so happy that I strained every nerve to wave at her.
We hugged each other when they met. My mother wiped the tears off his face and kissed me. I then realised that my mother dearly loved me.
Before we left, we thanked Mr. Tan. My mother then sent me ceremoniously home to have a hot bath and a good nap.
That night, when I laid down on my bed, my mind raced back to the frightening experience I had had!

Done by: Lau Hiu Yan

MY HAIR...

A crap entry..You dun have to read it...
Arrr...
My mum insisted on coming with me to the hairdresser yesterday..
She said that everytime I go to the hairdresser myself...it seems like my hair has not been cut...
NOw..my Hair is so short...arr...I dun feel comfortable...it seems like i have no hair...;(
But she and my father are so happy..sadistics...
Hmm...one wish...I will keep my hair long for at least once after I leave college...

HAha...today's is 13th sep...
About one week after the entry...
People have weird description on my new hairstyle...like China doll, the Hk actor Jiang Jia hui...teacher says it is nice...
Anyway, that's how I used to look in Sec one...
Here is a pic of the recent me!

Recalling teacher's Day

TEacher's Day...

I went to TMS at around 0830..meet up with Jia Min, Yin Ning, Joanne and Li Ting...
JP was still baking muffins....
Step into the foyer and saw Mr. Oh...He was busy as usual...excited as he used to be...we talked for a while and moved on....

Into the canteen...We saw Mdm Sabina..she showed us her daughter's photo...it was really adorable...I looked at other photos in her camera and found that her husband was really "Big size"...triple of her size I think....

As we walked passed the conference room to the hall...we shouted for Mrs. Tay who wsa in front of us. She was shocked! Haha...quite happy to see us she was...
She was one of the teachers who had taught me for 4 years le...my form teacher in secondary one...used to call me Hui Yan and even wrote that name in the report book which caused her great troubles...never forget my name since then :)

We then watched the concert performed by the graduating classes...
It was very funny...haha...better than Mj I suppose...they too have a baby photo contest...




I meet my Secondary one Science after that...never talk to her for a few years...if not for Jeevan who pull me into the conversation, I don;t think I will have a chance to talk to her...cuz I thought she has forgetten me...". But that's not the case..oopss...i told a photo with her too... Mdm Tan

Then,We saw Mr. Kamlesh who says he never enjoyed his Jc life in Vj..Ms woon who told us that Biology in Jc was easy...haha

I went back to Primary school after that....
And then travelled back to secondary school...

Just to meet up with all the TJ sec friends...
Talk, laugh, gossip and they need to hurray back for the S- cube talk..
So all the way I go...to the gate of TJ...
And home i went...
HAppy DAy...





Li Min dropped her wallet on the bus that day...hope that she has found it back..;)

PS. I saw Xiangle too...he is now much taller than me... ;)

Primary school...

I didn't manage to take a photo with our teacher cuz she is in a rush...
But I managed to take photos of the schools...The place where I once belong....



BEDOK SOUTH PRI (my school0 has merged with BEDOK VIEW to become
BEDOK GREEN....this is the sign board outside the dental clinic...



Me and my primary school friend...now my Best friend too...;)



The Place where we used to play the game Crocodile... I miss my old sch...



Kids today are lucky...they have much cleaner classroom compared to our times...
I seems so old suddenly



They even have a gym room called HERCULES..all theor equipments in it is kiddy size...VERY CUTE!!!

There are some more interesting pics...upload it when I have time...cya...
Hope you enjoy the tour to my so call "primary school"...although everything has changed...name, classrooms, building...At least the landmark is the same...I sense it...and our lovable teacher is still there..

Hurray;)

Teacher's Day 2005

Yesterday was fun...
I get to meet a lot of frineds and went back to primary school and took a lot of mermoarble photos...
But the sad thing was, my camera spoilt a very nice photo...Arrr...SOB...
I must show you guys....