“I am so happy to see your smile, how I hope you were here to stay…,” Grandma said warm-heartedly. Her look was so kind and soft like a feather. It stirred my heart for that very moment in time. It jumped. It stopped. I have always sense that she likes me around but I have never heard it from her words of mouth. The feeling of something undesirable was going to happen to her was something unthinkable. I tried to be optimistic but something just does not seem right.
As I shared my French fries and continued chatting with her, I wondered the emotions that were hiding behind her smile. Maybe, she indeed told me that she had nothing to be afraid of at her age but the uncertainty that lies ahead surely does has some impact on the individual. I don’t know. I just want to pray that nothing suffering will happen. Happiness always.
Time to get back to core studying. No one would be real delighted if my results are in one way or another affected. JIA YOU! :)
Life can be so sweet just by merely knowing that someone special out there is caring for you. The existence of a wondrous thing called love allows us to live in world filled with joy, hope and security. This spiritual word allows us to leave behind all worries and to feel all so complete. Plans are of no importance. Love. It is coincidence. It is fate. It is a plan of God.
I was filled with love when I was brought to the world. Gradually, I have grown to learn to love. To learn that love is unconditional. To learn that it warms our souls.
Touch my heart. Hold my hand. Catch my breath. Our hearts may melt into one.
"Can This Be Love?" Korean Drama and Movie Couples
I have watched so many Korean drama love stories in the past. It really makes our life sweet and perfect. How will my story be like? ^^
CAN THIS BE LOVE Smokey Mountain (Jeffrey Hidalgo)
Can this be love I'm feeling right now I know for certain I'm feeling right now I don't recall ever feeling this way Tell me what does one say To one who makes me feel this way Can this be love I'm feeling right now I am not sure of this feeling somehow Why do I tremble whenever you're near I can't seem to say my words so you'll hear
CHORUS: This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you" It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"
Can this be love I'm feeling right now I love the feeling it's giving me now A voice inside me is guiding me now It's telling me now To take your hand and say
CHORUS: This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you" It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you" This is the first time I'm gonna say "I love you" It's the first time I ever felt so helpless deep inside If I had to say a thousand times I'd tell you once again This is the first time This is the first time It's the first time I'm gonna say "I love you"again.
P.s. JIA YOU everyone for the exams and tests or works ahead!!! Hold on. :)
I love nights like this. Chatting over the phone in the presence of my roomie. Yet, time like this doesn't really last long. In the middle of the night, she left and I was left alone. Strangely, some things just started stirring my heart. I start to miss all of you again. I am used to being alone but in nights like this, I long for a company. To get me through my study nights and listen to my groans and signs.
But now, I need to get back to reality fast and stop wasting time!!!! EXERCISE SCIENCE test tomorrow! Jia you and Good luck. :)
I chose to spend my valentine's day alone, maybe, for a reason. My beloveds are all located round the globe. So blessed that I managed to have a good chat with them today. Love seriously had no boundaries, doesn't it? Brother, Mummy, Daddy and someone I come to know so well... Not forgetting my bestie Pupu loving message... Thanks for making a simple day like this so memorable...
Some things just go beyond the description of words... Sweet Valentine's MOnkey... ^^ Other side of me... Nowadays, I have been failing to adhere to my Pilates routine... Took a picture of my inflexibility (relative to the professionals.:p) I need 2 full months of determination to achieve a full split! I need resilience!!! Me after an exhausted workout in my room... --smiling due to endorphins drive :D haha.
Me with my dear Nike Pilates mat Goal: In the next 0.5-1 years Do a full split/ 180 vertical kick
In the next 2 months... Complete 5 Corkscrew without suffering from backache Hold in a Teaser position for at least 1 min Perform swimming for 1 min without fatigue Learn how to do a proper Boomerang
Proceed to Swan Dive advance after completion...
Striving to be a Pilates instructor with a Pilates body.. :)
In sch... 1. Begin on my training log for Exercise Science 2. Start revising on my weakest subject, Neurology!!! >< 3. Start preparing for the test at the end of the month 4. Find time to complete on my systematic review assignment 5. Remember to organize for interview with patient
In life... 1. Spare time for catching up with family and friends 2. Eat healthy 3. :D :D :D
JIA YOU AH!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY!!! ^^ 情人節快樂!!!
P.S. Hope I won't become PandaLau following my plan (and when you're back!)! Strive to remain as a cheerful and energetic MonkeyLau! ^^ Hugs and kisses..
"Physical fitness is the first prerequisite of happiness" J.H. Pilates (1880-1967)
Bruce protocol involves a change in speed and grade of the treadmill every 3 minutes. Procedures: 1. Warm up on treadmill at 0% gradient and a speed of 1mph for 3 mins. 2. Start test with a 10% grade incline at 1.7mph. 3. Increase grade to 12% and speed to 2.5mph after 3 minutes
Continue increasing the workloads every 3 minutes until subject reaches exhaustion or reaches 85% of the predicted max heart rate.
The following is my result! ^^ Date: 10/02/09 Finished Stage 05 ending at 11 mins and 58 sec. (limited by my calf strength ><) Speed: 8.05km/hr with a gradient of 18%. Anaerobic metabolism comes in the 9 mins. VO2 reaches the maximal at around 10 mins. Maximal Heart rate reached: 196 ^^
Simon smiling at me!!! --My lecturer Simon was showing me the cutie V signs but I missed the shot! Here is just a pic of him smiling. :)
Anaerobic cycling test (Wingate Bike test) Relative peak anaerobic peak power: 5.73W/kg --- only girl that passed 5.0 in my group! :D (av. was around 3.0?)
Today is Mummy's Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY birthday lo! Kisses x 10000000000000000000000!!!! Hugs x 10000000000000000000000000000000000!!!!!!!!!! May Penguin Mummy get healthier and slimmer and happier! :D
Pics taken on Mummy Lunar new year when I am back in Singapore!!! After I failed to buy a birthday cake from the bakery in the early morning, I came out with something creative. Gingerman on two small cakes!!! :D ^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Mummy is just tooo cute!!!!!!!! Hope you stay as happy as ever!!! Love Mummy! ^^
P.S. I am so happy today! I packed my stuffs, re-arranged my mind and I am clear on what I am going to do. As psychology class has taught me today, sometimes, we are all clear on what we are going to do, we just need re-assurance. Indeed, I was in the need of it. Thanks, brother.
Unbelievably, I have entered the year 2009 -- a year which I would be entering adulthood and to be faced with loads of decision-making about my future. Nothing seems to be certain for now. Maybe, as the old saying goes, the unknown makes our lives interesting. There are so many possibilities lay ahead for me to have any concrete goals or dreams. I seriously do not know what exactly is best for me or exactly what I wish for. Stepping into adulthood is not as easy as I thought it can be, sometimes, people of my age says I think too much about life. Indeed, most people do survive without thinking, people do survive and live happily without much consideration and worries. And why am I thinking so much about my future plan? I wonder. I maybe afraid of many of the possibilities that would be happening in my life and wondering whether I have the abilities to accept them. I may, also, be in a state of denial, trying to ignore consequences of actions in order to live happily as a person. Coming home during the new year gives me time to rejuvenate and be a little girl again. Yet, in a few days time, I would be back in a world of reality, a world which I have to deal with my own cause. To think deep, I loved home and yet, I realised I have also come to get attach to the place called Hong Kong. It serves as a place for my metamorphosis. It made me grow. It helped me to discover my likes and dislikes. It made me discover the importance of home and friendship. It made understand the fight for survival and the reasons to fight for our own rights. Throughout my two years, my mindset and perspective about this place might have changed. It might be polluted and it too has beautiful hiking sites. It might be fast-paced and exhausting but I somehow realised that it goes all the same for people who are hard-working out there. The space for living might be all that confined but that gives a good start for a cosy home. The problem with Hong Kongers is that many of them just work too hard, no matter whether it is work and play. We just need to learn not to stretch ourselves to the maximal, things might turn out all fine.
The past year had been all great! Loads of ups and downs that fulfilled my university life. :) Having my first placement. Flying off to Europe all by myself. Being in touch with kind, sporty, aggressive, pervertic and muscular patients. Being away from home for the longest period of time. Survived few months of tremendous stress. Getting to know great friends.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! HOPE ALL OUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!
Lives your life to the fullest. :D Do not miss out on golden opportunities. Things might never turn back. Times changes everything. Our minds. Our hearts. Our goals. Our dreams. This might be especially true when we are young and we can afford those mutations. Regardless, changes scare me. Confuse me. Baffle me. Maybe, after my 21st birthday, I would have more courage in the things I do. I might need some guidance for now. :P
Trekking couldn't be that fun without you guys. Wonderful memory on new year eve.
After a few photo-taking trails... 其实, 婆婆的拍照技术也不赖啊!!! Looking down at Victoria Bay!!! Trekking up hills over hills. 无名英雄?下次记得装cool一点啊!!! 切橙的新方法!!! 很professional! 哈哈!!! 在风中的中国和香港国旗。。。 照片很有feel吧 ... ... ︿︿ (trying to be a good photographer :P )
Finally, 崖上的波兒 is on theater and I called upon my friends to watch it after class yesterday!!! 100% pure entertainment for those with a young heart!!! Absolutely mesmerized me! :D
This post is dedicated to Mer Mer Gor! Another masterpiece by your favourite 宮崎駿!!!
"As long as you're at the gym, you might as well meet someone. We'll show you some tips that will get you buns of steel and maybe even a honey bun."
Try it if you want! :D Soo interesting... haha... People with nice figures are worth admiring. It's not abnormal to observe glances around the room. Just look and stay cool.
P.S. I dun flirt. haha. But really find this intriguing.
BMI down to 19? Can I? Nobody is giving me the motivation. :( Finished a whole metal can of butter cookies within 2 days. Ruined. I am just being obsessed with hot legs. Arr... Get that idea off me!!!
Sometimes, I found that young people nowadays is not viewing and valuing relationship as it should be. Out of a class of 57 people, there was a combination and permutation of 12 couples with only around 7 couples left standing. Obviously, relationships among my classmates had thereby become kind of awkward. There are people that we couldn't mention in front of the other. And for some reason, I realised I have been trying to isolate myself from the crowd recently. To try to pretend that I am oblivious to the things around me such as to get a peace of mind in school. Maybe, I am the kind that do not like to drift around with groups that I may eventually feel exhausted to be in.
My Mum had not allowed me to go out with friends on my own will until I was Secondary 3 or maybe, strictly, Junior College. To be frank, I had been telling many white lies to both my friends and family all these years in order to try to satisfy both side of the situation. No doubt, unhappiness, anger and guilt raged through my teenage years but somehow, it developed a character of independence. My Mum often tells me that's a blessing if I'm not feeling lonely when you are doing things by yourself. It had somehow greatly influenced me, now, I enjoy times alone, reflecting about life, thinking about the past, enjoying scenery, exercising... Though many of a time, I long for a company but if the right one is not along the way, I rather have myself being alone. I do not mind having less friends, the thing I mind is whether I have a true friend by my side.
Friends of yours getting into relationship with each other and broke up within months. Does this sound familiar? What do you do? Pretend that you know nothing? Pretend that nothing had happen before? Can we really pretend? As I talked to my professor the other day, he said he actually need to get news on who had been involved with who in the class so as to come up with the groupings for placement. Disastrous things can occur when matters are not taken seriously. The problem is -- I seriously do not see why relationships between lovers are viewed as such minute matters in my school compound or even, today's society in general. People go in and out of relationship within months or even weeks and days and they could dare say that they have considered it really seriously before getting together. I have thought of a few possible answer (focusing on the mentality of girls). Is it that girls are getting too desperate and even can't wait for the time to see what the guy is like before getting into a relationship? Or is it that girls find it hard rejecting guys at the initial stage? Or they want a record of the highest amount of relationship they get into?
I never got to the stage of the need to reject guys as I never allow guys that is interested in me and that I just want to-be-friend with to take and make a step further into a more-than-a-friend relationship. I had rejected invitations to meals, ignore phone calls, MSN and any unnecessary meetings with some people. I feel bad many of a time but the feeling would go as in the end if you know you are doing the right thing. Some girls don't have the ability to do that, their hearts and minds flicker and they want to try something they are very unsure of and often, the consequences do not end up well. I guess, sometimes, this kind of process can be saved from happening. It's just kind of redundant. You can call me conservative but maybe, I believe in finding the one and to build on a wonderful story together. A Cinderella dream? Some says I am naive but with belief, dreams do come true. :) I hope.
A picture showing love between me and my brother... The sheep and the monkey.
Follow our hearts. But still, we need our minds to bring it into actions. And hence, it all goes back to how well our minds trust our hearts. That trust come with risk. And in a situation like love, how much risk can we take?
P.S. Actually, for me to have a better figure, I need to suffer from muscle atrophy and I might very well drop that idea. Just need to eat less of my favourite cookies and be more perseverance in exercising. :D:D:D It's real nice to know that someone actually share the same SMILES thought with me. :) Do leave more comments. :) And click back on comments for replies. :)
Who could have miss out on a picture with your best buddy on the first day of school? There are not much chances like this.
Thanks Timothy for the concern and best wishes. Thanks Brother for the cute little T-shirt from Peru. Thanks Yoyo from being my best buddy.
A new school year has commenced! I just hope that the relationships among friends in school would not get more complicated.
I will continue to maximize my own potential and soar beyond the clouds. Towards... more brain power & a better figure... ...
All the best for Spidey's exams too...
Looking forward to see my home with my loving Daddy and Mummy in it. No place is better than home. I couldn't deny that. At least, for me, it's true. You might like a place a lot but without love, it's never perfect. But well, we need to learn to live our lives to the fullest no matter where we are... Life is precious and every moments of it is not to be wasted. Everything happen for a reason, every person that walks into your life has a purpose and hence, we need to learn to appreciate every single event that happen in life.
JIA YOU for the new year!!!
P.S. To Chen who has wished all RS students Happy new Year in my comment: May I know who you are if you happen to read this :) :) :)
Christmas.New Year.Presentations.Feedback.End of clinical.Release of GPA.Celebration.Catching up with buddy.And loads of movie watching. Time has been passing too fast for me to recall. Farewell, dear patients and CE. Get well soon. Next week will be a brand new start again. School time.