Mixed FeElings...

ARrr....I hate my computer, once i connected my internet service with my Dad's com. , i can't go online....extremely irritating...and this have been going on for months...Aarr....can someone just fix it...but the problem is no one knows how to...PISSED!

My Appeal to Tj was unsuccessful and so i ended up in Meridian JC...today was the first day of Orientation...it was not that bad... though my group does not speak much and was not that enthusiatic...i decided to be the one that cheer and makes things fun...it ended up Ok after that...

Meridian is so much different from Temasek...maybe as SQ says...There is no culture here...unlike Tj....
Their mass dance is so ....(nothing to say)....the dance steps was stupid i thought...but anywway, i am going to like it...DUN COMPARE...my mum told me...if not, i will feel SAD AGAIN, and that's bad...

Castor's cheer is like Terranus cheer...though the tone was a bit different, the lyrics are almost the same...i think i need some time to get use to it..:p

TJC OG8 for the first three months of 2005 was better...this is a fact and i am not going to repeat it twice...
AARDE we are AA can't you see
come my house and have some tea
drink already sure MATI...

BUt for now...MJ castor 1 is gonna to rock the stage too..

On Saturday, i talked to Herlina over the phone for almost an hour...she thought i got back into Tj but found out that i didn't ...she became speechless...She felt really sad too... said a lot of touching things....
She told me tat she could rather have who and who to leave except me....that i was her true friend...someone to speak her heart out..
Yeah...indeed she was...She was the oldest friend that i knoe...Over ten years of friendship...and 10 years of being in the same school...i am going to part...we promise to meet up often but still, it was still hard for her to believe the fact...

Here are something for all my friends in TJ, NYJ , RJ , VJ and HCJ
esp. to Herlina and some of my OG and SCG mates

Sometimes friends have to leave
It's very sad but true
But this me to believe
Friends still a part of you

And if you go away
And live some other place
I will think of you each day
and see your smiling face

and I
will always be your friend
No matter where you are
Just around the bend
or very very far

whenever you will go
When you reach your jouners end
No matter what
I'll always be your friend

I will always be
YOUr Friend
although we're far apart
I'll see you in my dreams
and feel you in my heart

althought the years may fly
I know we'll meet again
and when we do
I still be your friend
Your very
TRuest
Bestest
Friend

LOve Always...HIu Yan

TJC.....make me understand the word "sad"

Oh...this happened under LT1 of TJC .I was shocked and stunned as i looked at the Jc column next to the 8871603 E IC no. It was really unbelievable, something I had not dream or even thought of......I was posted to Meridian JC.
For a few second, I couldn't react, I felt a sense of fear, I blinked.....and squeezed back into the crowd......8871603E....Meridian Junior College....I confirmed myself, there was no mistakes....I walked out of that area...trying to find someone to scream my head out....I saw Herlina....I uttered out my words....I sound worried....and sound as if i am going to cry...I put her to accompanied me to get my appeal form....and i wen t round holding onto that form....no one believe i was kicked out.....not my friends, my seniors and especially myself....but it was truth.....my first idea was to get home...to get things done and most importantly to calm myself down....i am suffering from SHOCK....and i Know that myself....
As i walked home....i couldn't hold back my tear anymore....my mind was empty except for this very disappointment....
I dashed home, mum was home....i was relieved....someone to share my feelings......
I rushed through the forms and essay and dashed back to school....
nothing concern me...i was too sad....i frowned badly....
Thanks to all who helped me along on the way....
Ms Shera Tan, Mr Lim, Weldon, Zoe and friends esp. MS and my senior Kai Bin who has tried to console me......it was really heart warming.....
I hope i could get back into Tjc.....it is all i hope for for now...PRAY HARD for me guys....
Let's me have fun in MJC orientation!!!!
It's gonna be a new experiences......
I miss everything.......
P.S After the appeal, Mummy brought me to Redhill library for the FRINED OF LIBRARY party, i cried all the way from Bedok to Redhill as my mum talked crap to me...the old pp do stupid things....i stopped crying....and i chatted with MS<>Good night and sweet dreams!!!