Christmas

I got up!
Made two personalised items for Jp and my dear teacher-- Ce Xiang. Yeah, considered to be Christmas presents. It looked quite nice, too bad i didn't have time to take a picture of that.

I have English tuition after that.
Ended at about 12 noon and out family went to the STAR WAR exhibition at science centre.

rush home and made a great christmas meal for mummy. FIRST TIME. It seems so cool. She was very happy.

Blog

Blog

Hi! Haven't been blogging for quite some time. My Dad just said that it is not safe to write my diary on the net, he just had this terrible experiences that the server will be down and everything will be gone. Well, I never thought of that. Will blogspot.com ever shut down? If yes, it would be nightmare to most.

Christmas time was fun.

Christmas Eve -- Went out with some primary schools mates and end up trapped in Orchard Road. We see Singapore snowed for the first time in my life. Everywhere was a chaos. Herlina just went crazy and said that she couldn't even smile. Haha. Before that, we went all the way to Marina Bay for steamboat dinner. My whole shirt smelled like charcoal after that. The whole place were 'flooded' with steam. =)

P.S. and Guo Hong just refused to gel the hair for Gerald in front of us. They argued over the topic for almost half an hour. So, I just took a pic with them.




This is a precious photo that few can actually capture it.
Tsung Wei and Spencer together. Questionable? Anyway, Tsung Wei still think I am a guy. Arr...




TO be continued... ...
Yeah, we went to Marina Bay to have steam boat after that. YT went to meet his eight other goddness. When we left it was quite late. We set off to somerset and walked to Orchard. Everything was in a chaos. We can only squeeze our way through. Policemen were attacked with forms that is supposed to look like snow. We were attacked too. Herlina screamed in silence. I laughed. Kang Yong says that Singaporean are mad. The two other guys--- are they enjoying it? I don't know.

It was also the first time I need to line up to get into a MRT station. Horrible!!!!
The others went to the park for count down and I went home. Mummy slept and Daddy rushed out to show me the SHHHH sign. =)

See the squid!! CUTE!!!

Great Leaders.

Hope we can all learn something from this =)

Teaching, Inspiring and Motivating Leaders

Apply Pressure

There are two kinds of pressure: The kind you feel and the kind you
apply.

John Fox

A very successful colleague of mine commented the other day that,
although his mother and father both had high blood pressure, he did
not. He said he has always wondered why he had not inherited it.
Another colleague quickly responded that it was because he was a "high
blood pressure carrier." "You'll never develop high blood pressure
because you
are so busy giving it to others," he said. Indeed much of my
colleague's tremendous success over his many years of law practice has
been due to his ability to apply so much pressure to those around him,
that he doesn't feel pressured himself.

Great leaders are masters of applying pressure and not feeling
affected by it. They always seem to be one step ahead of others. They
anticipate where things are moving and get there before the
competition. They spend much more time creating change than they do
reacting to it. They give
subordinates plenty of challenging assignments rather than waiting for
them to ask for work. They understand that the best defense is a
strong offense and attack difficulties before they grow out of
control.

Do you feel more pressure than you apply? Are you leading change and
innovation or constantly reacting to the changes and innovation of
others? What could you do differently in your daily schedule to begin
applying pressure and not feeling affected by it?

Plan, prepare and execute your daily plan this week in a way that
enables you to begin spending more time initiating action rather than
reacting to the actions of others. Anticipate where things are going
and work smarter each day to get there before the competition. Begin
applying more pressure while not letting pressure affect you.


Hmm. Things are here for me to learn. A 17 going on 18 little girl. Yan Yan =)

NCO camp 2005

NCO camp 2005


Loads of things happened after my take over as a corp officer. Things weren't that smooth that I thought it could be. I have learnt and realised quite a lot of things. Conflict among humans, management, and the will power to withstand anger, unfairness and authority.

The waves occurred last week have finally been settled. A little encouragement from Mervyn really does make me happy.

Followed on will the NCO camp 2005 on the 8th of December.
It was memorable! Not to say very happy but the elements of fun, joy, sadness, anger, tiredness and sometimes loniness have made it all so complete.

First day --- it was supposed to be the preparation of the campsite and all the admin stuffs. Well, I was the assisstant admin and was really 'lucky' that it was to be in charge of all the typing, papers and money. No fun at all. Yet, I enjoyed the part where me, Aveline, Wei Lun and Choon Yuan were working together pasting newspaper on the window. That was entertaining! See how bored I am that day.
Later, me and the two guys sat down with the instructors and talked craps. Stuffs about cadets, rich kids and religions. Hmmm.
Sir Angus told me to go out to buy dinner so off i went with a pile of money in my back pocket. I found some joy with the cats on the way and back at the campus. Wei Lun was playing with one of the kittens and when we put him back into the bushes, it just followed him back. Haha. That was cute.

Second day --- boring day. Cadets falling in for first parade and it started raining. I was in charge of carrying all their valuables and sorting out of the admin stuffs and consficated items. Didn't really know what happen after that. Cadets have their lectures and stuffs. Oh yeah... I went for bunk check, this time I was not so strict, just dig out their bags and scolded one and two of them.

SUPPER TIME


Third day --- it was hiking at Pulau Ubin. I didn't go for the hike. I was put as the over- all in charge back in Bedok View. WOW! The school was mine with two others and casualties. I slept for a while, played cards with choon yuan, typed out the minutes for the previous meeting and went out to buy lunch. After lunch, I actually talked rubbish with the cadets and taught them how to make a double star using a rubber band. Amazed they were. Me too! >< At night, I got a chance to move out of the campus in the ambulance. I was told to accompany Siang Yee home. She was sick obviously. That night, I even found out that Sir Angus was my senior of Bedok South Primary. Haha. He was the 1991 badge if I did not remember wrongly. We have meeting until 2 sth midnight after that.

Fourth day --- the most unforgettable moment of my life.
It was my brother's birthday. I booked at around 0920 and went back home for GP tuition. After that me and family went to LONG BENCH to have seafood. GOOD FOOD! Chilli crabs, salad prawns, fish, plus plus plus... I love it.
Went back to campus at around two sth. They were having their team building games.
It was the best part of the whole camp. They need to satisfy us in order to get ROAR CARDS! ROAR CARDS... it makes me high... (those who know me know how horrible i can get) I make the cadets scream, shout and dance. They got entertained as well as me too. SUPERB. i love the centaur group. they were the best. =)

That night was campfire night. And I am the MC of the day. WOW... the campfire rocks because I am in there. But silly me has made a very silly mistake that ruined up my whole emotion. I have mixed up the camp commander and chairman. Sirs and mdms were sort of frustrated. It made me sad. I cried. Though they praised me later for my job well done. I think it was great, I meant real great besides that terrible mistake. A pat on my own shoulder. It has been my first and very best campfire.

Many people cried that day. Mdm Pei Pei got so miserable when Christina told her that she was going to quit. Regina cried beacuse she was too stressed up.
I have meeting till 0300 sth midnight.
I was the DO (duty officer) the next day. I got to plan my timetable. Together with Sir Han Wee, we walked around the whole school -- planning the area cleaning programme next day (that day). Slept at around 0445 and woke up at 0515.
It was the first time I have so little sleep. Terrible.

Asked cadets to fall in the morning and all I remember was that I kept scolding and scolding. I think the course IC of the day was quite stressed up too. haha. The cadets owned about 350 jumping jacks and I have managed to clear 90 that morning. Success.

Everything went smoothly after that. =) Wee...
At least, I was not blur. =)
Break camp! We wrote autographs for eachother.



Me as an officer. Too much of a reponsibility. I might be getting tired but I know that you guys are there to boost me on =)

A real world is a messed up place - maybe i am just experiencing the glimpse of it

A real world is a messed up place - maybe i am just experiencing the glimpse of it

St. John is a messed up place. I am pissed now. Very pissed.
I have planned to scold all of you and here you are giving me more reasons to do so.
One time. Second time. And here is it the third time.
I just think it is funny.
Who on Earth will one inform the (in-charge of the meeting) last on the list?
This is horrible, what if I am not free?

I maybe a goat. Too kind-hearted for some reasons. Yeah. But I am an unhappy goat lately. Thanks to them.
I have gone to NCO course, wasting half of my time.
Then back in my corp, things are just not going straight.
I have been reprimanding them every time I go back.
It is not me. I am going a bit nuts on this shit.
A challenge for me huh?! Well, I am going to accept this challenge.
Me- Corp office in charge. I am not going to see it ruin out. At least, not now.

I am not supposed to thinking about this stuffs. Yet, it is just pouring over me.
Maybe I shall not think too much as Mervyn has said.

My junior just called me at 9 sth to inform me about the change.
Yesterday I was just having some emotional ups and downs due to some Benjamin's theory.

Things are all messed up.
Nothing is right. This is not okay.
Or is it that bad?

Well, I have thought of a good idea. Giving BB a name. A very professional name. One problem solved. Here comes another. Pissed.

But maybe, that's what life is all about.

It's an experience. A true experience.

Last Friday

What did I do this week?

Recalling...

Last Friday.

I went to school in the morning for some stupid photo taking. Supposedly everyone from Biz Club was supposed to turn up, but as usual nobody did. Lucky, Zhen Sheng, another non-exco member, was there to crap with me. He is guy that really looked like Ka Cheong. It seems like they have the same face, only a bit thinner.

I left around 0930 and went back to TMS for St. John. I taught the juniors bed bathing and was happy that they were enlightened. Yet, another frustrating happened. The NCOs ordered the Sec. 1 to clean up the pigeonholes at the side and then they went off. I looked at the holes. What on earth is happening? Do they consider this neat? I knelt down start packing myself? Nobody bothered. Anger started to build up. I restrained. Then I found three St. John berets stuffed together with a dirty sock.

I stood up, stared at them. "Do you know your beret is something that you should respect, and you all just stuff here with some sock for the juniors to see?". I went rambling on and took them to pack the holes NICELY for me. They tried maybe but to no avail. I picked out a bag of helmets and found piles of clothes beneath the bag. "Do you all pack thing just by looking on the surface? Do you understand the meaning of neat? If you don't, how do you expect your junior to know what to do?" I started scolding again. Arrr. That was the last time I am packing the room. I said that. Yet, I don't so. We will see.

Afternoon, I went to Auntie Anna's house. My mum and friends were having a party there. Lots and lots of dumplings. WOW! I socialize with all of them. Chatted and laugh my head out. It was fun. My mother was mad as usual. Giggling and showing some funny Yoka style. Then another moment, they were talking 'yellow' and some other experiences they have with their husbands. An afternoon with a gang of Aunties was fun. I don't mind another. Haha.

Went home at around 4sth and Bjorn SMS me. I was shifted to the third shift for ice-cream selling. That's mean I no need to go to school early and I have a chance to crap with zhen sheng again. Good. So off I went to sleep before I woke up at 0630.

Oops! Bash start at 0700 and Jasmine told me to meet them at 0610. Everything was off timing. I drank some soup, dressed up and rushed out.

Reached school at 7 something for bash. Meet up Jasmine and Kristin, got high with Jo Jo for something and sold ice cream.

Details of it...let me account on another day.

Got to sleep. St. John early morning tomorrow. Cya!

Recalling Primary six days...

Just finished reading my own blog and other people blog's entries. Interesting stuffs. Maybe I would become more interesting as I grow older. It feels funny reading my primary six diary now. What do I know about love then? And there I was rambling on stuffs about love.

Talking about primary six, it was a wonderful year with lots of ups and downs, joy and tears and some really beautiful memories.

Remember our school shifted to Chai Chee that year due to the rebuilding of our old school compound. Bedok South Primary School only left three years of ages. Sob. I was forced to take the school bus to school. My mum never allowed me to step out or into the house alone then. Not until I reached Secondary 3. So I was the oldest on the bus, and that's when I learn how to play Pokemon card with those Primary Two Kids.

Back then, I have a very good friend which I lost contact for now. Her name is Liu Ting. We went to the library nearly every recess. Going to the comic corner where we have to take out our shoe to entry that 'reading area'. Haha. There were a lot of soft toys there and we played and talked to it almost everyday. We even pull out the cotton of the soft toy and hide it in corners of the library. As for the cotton, we termed it as "eggs of the soft toy". Sometimes, we go down and join the others which I could always initiate the game 'crocodile'. We didn't play as much as we did back in the old compound. Area constraint? Or did we grow older? I don't know about others, but I feel the same except for my face, which looked more decent, and with more pimples on it.

My teacher liked me a lot because she liked my smart brother a lot. Yet, I was once pulled to the principal for interrogation. Actually, our teacher appointed us to guard our classroom for a period of time due to some robbery cases, but there was this problematic guy who reported to the teacher and say that his pencil box was lost and suspected that we steal it. So we were pull to see the VP. Sound funny.

Primary six. It was also the year I start to get infatuated the first time in my life. Never know what was it back then, so I termed it 'love' in my diary as I mentioned. I think everyone who is in the same class know who he is. It was actually my classmates who said we match that I started liking him. I think I didn’t realize much of it back then too. But I remembering him calling me and me being nagged at by my mum just slammed the phone. I was sad each time I did that. It hurts actually. Never mind about it. It's the past. He is two years older than me and was in primary 4back then. Now, I suppose he is going to the secondary four next year. Hmm. All the best to him.

Other memories shall linger in my mind, my heart for as long as it could.

SURPRISE!

Surprise! I never thought I would design such a template. Thanks to Lily who helped me along. It's now 0237 midnight. I have lingered over the thing for almost 2hours and a half. Lucky that my effort was not gone to waste, I have at least learnt something - how to design this NICE template with MINGDAO my sweet heart. MELTED!!!
I found a website where you can find his and 183 club video and MTV. Amazing that someone just designed that webpage. A kiss to who ever she or he is.

Copy and paste this link and watch the other ending of PRINCE TURN INTO FROG.
It really makes my heart throb. I dun want Shan Jun Hao to end up this way. SOB!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=6YxFJpu1kro&search=wang%20zi%20bian%20qing%20wa%20fan%20wai%20pian%20183Club%207F%20mingdao%20shaowei%20xiaoqiao%20qiaoen%20ending


Sleeping now... uploading photos of JC bash will be still under construction.
Lazy me.

zzz.zzz.

THINK

Sometimes, I feel that it is interesting to sit down and reflect on the way we think. While most of the times, we will be wondering why we are thinking this way. It’s strange. Why? Our environment, the culture we are exposed to or even our genes, affects us. Hmm. Read the following extract. It makes the world more complex. It made me more sophisticated. At least, it proves that I am grown up. Yet, I like to remain childish. Confused mind. End off

A Simple Wisdom:
the possibility of being wrong

by Stephen B. Waters

Sometimes, even when you think you are right, you are not.You think you're right, not because you are right, but simply because you think you're right

For who has ever considered himself lacking in sense?

That would be a self-contradictory proposition. Lack of sense is a disease that never exists when it is seen; it is most tenacious and strong, yet the first glance from the patient's eye pierces it through and disperses it, as a dense mist is dispersed by the sun's beams.

There never was a street-porter or silly woman who was not sure of having as much sense as was necessary. We readily recognize in others a superiority in courage, physical strength, experience, agility, or beauty. But a superior judgment we concede to nobody. And we think that we could ourselves have discovered the reasons which occur naturally to others, if only we had looked in the same direction.

You need to be right, because your best future depends on it. You plan your future according to the map of reality you carry in your mind. You need that map as accurate as can be. You depend on it.So how do you know when you are wrong? That's what friends are for. That's why people converse. That's why we write things. Writing freezes each thought for further scrutiny from any side. In the light of a new morning, we see if our ideas make the same sense they seemed to make the night before

If one learns from others but does not think, one will be bewildered. If, on the other hand, one thinks but does not learn from others, one will be in peril.

[Confucius]I'll run to the truth and embrace it as soon as I see it coming.

[Montaigne]Make this simple wisdom your own or the real driving force to learn is missing

Neoprint

Neoprint took at Heren last Sunday at a 4/1 gang gathering.
On request by Lily.

Ming Dao- My Perfect Valentine!

Something I must really share!!!!

明道，可能没听过吧？
但真得很帅！开始时喜欢他扮演的角色，后来喜欢他本人，他出身于菜市场，为了帮助家里，到电视台作主持人主持《冒险王》，获得金钟奖，后来参演天国的嫁衣，崭露头角，第二部戏《王子变青蛙》创下台湾最高收视纪录。下面是我转帖别人的。
明道，一个爱收集花花内裤的男人，会因为见到大包的内裤而兴奋，会因为别人送他内裤毫不吝啬的给他拥抱的古怪男人。
明道，一个敢于冒险的男人，他坚韧不拔，在生关头还会笑着说“刺激”的纯金男人。
明道，一个爱哭的男人，会因为想妈妈而哭，像个长不大的孩子，立志要做刘德华的歌曲代言人“男人哭吧哭吧不是罪，尝尝阔别已久眼泪的滋味......”
明道，他赢了，他打破了不朽神话，成为最年轻的金钟奖得主，可是在成就背后是无尽头的付出，这是他应的的。
明道，一个出身菜市场的孩子，与其说是上天眷顾这个孩子，不如归功与奋斗，他用自己的手打拼自己的天下，现在他红了，自己做出的努力见到了成效，他得到了别人的认可，人们愿意随着这个菜市场小孩看世界，同时也证明了不是出身名门的人，同样可以拥有自己的一片天，而且会更大，更蓝....
明道，你一路走来，变的成熟，七年前《我猜》中那个穿着蓝色背背裤的羞涩小男生，对主持人一句“你很想红啊”都无力反驳，因为你不是他们口中说的“SUPER STAR”现在呢？面对同样的主持人，你不会在让她牵着你走。
明道，你随剧组漂洋过海，你见证过一场美丽爱情的归宿，你感受过世界第一道曙光，同样的，你也曾挣扎在生死的瞬间，可是你却可以坦然的一笑而过，是不是真的“紧要关头不放弃，绝望就会变成希望？”
明道，你是那么完美，完美到不可挑剔。是《冒险王》塑造了你坚强？还是“海诺”演绎了心中另一个你？无论是冒险王明道，还是《天国》里那个明道，又或许是诠释两个不同阶层人物生活的明道，在你身上总是散发着无穷的能量，我搞不清楚你的磁场有多大！
现在，一个令每一个女孩都为之倾倒的单均昊，一段让人发自内心的失去记忆最初的爱，这次你赢了 ，你带走的不仅仅只是一个奖杯，还有每一个人的心。
明道，你到底想要怎样？你给我们下了最幸福的迷魂计，可是每一次你都只给我们维系一周生命的解药，可是药用完了，我们该怎么办？
明道同学，现在我将正式以“侵占罪”对你提起控诉，你强行占有本人心中4/3的空间，这可能回致使我到了五十岁依然孤单，现在我你赔偿我的青春，精神损失3万，并且惩罚你爱你的FANS一辈子。

“没有你，我该怎么办？”
“神啊，救救我吧......”

By one of his fans!!!

I am getting crazy too!!!

Some Updates

Some updates on my life lately.

Let me start from the last day of school which is last Friday. Our 'stylish' principal come into the hall and gave an unexpectedly short speech. She just said that we were better than last badge and that the teachers were full of praises for us. Boring. I always thought her scoldings was better. More funny at least. After which, all the 4As students were to remain behind, we were told that we need a total 'A' level point of 45 and a pass in all 4 subjects in order to maintain our 4 sub. I felt an uneasiness in me at that moment. I didn't get good grades. Is it enough to make up to 45 points? Confused. Frustration and a little bit of frighteness was in me.=p I reached for my result slip in container classroom 2 1 hour later and glared down at the middle column. Oh no! I got 44.5 points! Haha, I laugh at myself. I am always on the border line case. Who would have dream of such points? How? I asked Ms Wang. She said that she will put me under "the special case". Then, she went on saying that my grades were quite stagnant(actually is just chem and bio) and said that I would have do much more better with 3 subjects.
Final conclusion: 44.5 = 45 , so my subjects remain but it also mean that i need to work harder and stop current interest -slacking. =)

Saturday - send my parents off to London. Left me and brother.
Sunday - Primary school gang came at around 3 pm and stayed until 11 pm. We played squash, play bridge, eat pizza, celebrated all our birthdays and compared each other legs. Fun day it is. Nice feelings meeting old friends. Here are some photos.







On Tue- Jung Pu came and stay over at my house. Watched movie, sleep, talk and I got to learn the guitar for the first time. WOW! Here a pic on my bed. =)






The sad thing is I need to go to school on Monday, wednesday and friday for Project Work. But it is also the reason I couldn't go to London. SOB!

Yeah, I am enjoying myself now.

And one more thing, Ming dao from 183 Club rocks, he is my white prince.=) Watch Prince Become Frog at 0700 every Wed, Thurs and Fri. =)

明道



本名：林朝章
生日：1980/02/26
星座：雙魚座
血型：O型
身高：180cm
體重：70kg
語言：國、英、台
興趣：玩車、吉他
專長：表演、主持

PW

Just finish some part of my PW. Not a complete set is done. I am too sleepy to type. I do not like PW! Arr... I really need to sleep. CYa!

Miracle do happen

It's midnight 100am. I have been sleeping too much just now. Hmm... Drift off to yesterday's morning.

My first period was Math lecture. I have got a B for Mathematics. Far too much mistakes I have made. Carelessness is always within my sight. When can I kick it out totally from my life? Is "Never" the word? I hope not. My A levels are not far away.

Next period was interesting. We are going to receive our Physics paper. I thought I was going to fail. Yet, my brother has this strange thinking that I would not. Strange. Half of the whole cohort failed and I am always the majority. I never pass my tests, the best I got was an AO. Sad. At least, I pass my mid- year, I told myself.

My heart was not pumping normally and my hands are freezing.
"Tutors, you can give out Section A now!" Our cute Physics teacher, Mr Se, said.
I turned to my right and stared at the piles of paper. Last paper. Faster can.
It works. Paveen accidentally slipped out my paper while taking hers. I got mine first.
I flipped to the front and looked at my marks. 75/150. Did I pass? My whole mind was blank. I could not even do simple calculation. I was stunned for a moment. I thought for a while. I passed with a D. Later, they announced the deduction marks was not counted, so I got 51%. Not a very magnificent grade. But to me, it was a success. At least, for Physics it is.
I SMS 3 very important person. Daddy, brother goat and nick.
CONGRATULATION! They typed.
Daddy wanted me to work harder from now on. Okay! I would promise myself to that.

I passed every subject. This was a miracle. Something I never would have expected. Am I being lucky or something? My favourite quote, "Luck is when preparation meets opportunity." Maybe, I have good luck this time. Here, thanks to all who have helped me and encouraged me in this promotional exams. =)

However,I could not express or celebrate this joy. My friends have not done as they wished. They are disappointed. They cried. I felt that I am helpless. I can only console and pray for the best for them. Stay strong, my friends. All of you are going to make it. I am here to give you my blessings. Remember me and smile! =)
JIa YOU!

As I final conclusion, I scored a BDDD. Not something eye- catching but it meant something to me. Four subjects to go in J2. Be strong I must be too. I managed to keep up to your promise, my dear brother.

Ending off. 0130
Smile Always n think positively. Sth to all my friends all there.

Unforgettable moments!

Today is a special day. I did something I never thought of doing in my college days. Oh my God! This is getting on my nerve.

I did something that I would not explain.

Heart pumping.

End off.

True freedom

Someone sent me this, i thought it was very meaningful. Esp: To hope is to risk despair, and to try is to risk failure. But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing. All the best to everyone in the future no matter what it may hold. And remember, don't be afraid to take risks! =)
All the best!


True Freedom
True freedom can only be achieved by taking risks. No moment can be truly savoured, no life genuinely touched, without putting your ego and emotions on the line.
To experience fully is to yield completely. And in surrendering ourselves, we inevitably run the risk of wounding our pride or breaking our hearts.
But what is life, if not a series of experiences? each one capable of changing our lives in profound ways?
An unknown author writes about the risks we should take, in order to truly experience life?
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk being called sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk showing your true self.
To place your ideas and your dreams before a crowd is to risk being called naive.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair, and to try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest risk in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and love and live.
Chained by things that are certain, he is a slave.
He has forefeited his freedom.
Only the person who risks is truly free.
POEM BY UNKNOWN AUTHOR

Graduation

I finally Graduated As AN officer….Grade 6….This is my group Nov. A group that is full of fun individuals...gonna miss you guys very much!!!

My feelings

My spirit has been dampened this few days. I am not getting good grades for all my tests. Physics, Chemistry, Biology, although they have been able to get out of the F region, AO and D still lingered around. This is sad. At least, it made me sad. Have I been working hard? Is there something wrong with my studying techniques? Or am I too nervous during the test? What’s wrong? Questions came popping into my mind. I am skeptical about myself. I doubt what I do is right. Or is it that I am having too much of an expectation? Yet, I know that I have not reach my limits. I can do better. I tried to believe in myself. However, I doubt this trust. I doubt my belief. It seems like I am losing confidence. I need to help myself to pick up. Despair. Misery. Melancholy. These words should be out of my mind, out of my soul. It’s only two weeks to promotional exams and I am going to strike hard and put in my best effort.

“Work harder ar, Hiu Yan!” Ms Wong said. I will. I will try my best at least.
And now, I am here to tell myself, “I am going to promo with all my four lovely core subjects!” This is going to come true. I need to have faith in myself.
Good luck to all my friends who are taking their exams in the near ‘future’ to come.



P.S Obstacles are what you see when you loss sight of your goal.
Stay focus, work smartly and work towards your goals.

A’s all the way! =)

Batman Begins

Actually, we planned to go and watch 5566 that night. However, we turn out watching movie, The Batman Begins in the middle of Padang. My friend gave me the wrong information. One word. Frustrating. At least, I got to see Li Hwei. =) luv ya baby

POor Kitty

This is some crap stuffs from a crap website that might be useful for writing in essay...

Recent research, reported in The Scotsman and other news corporations, shows that the keeping of unmodified cats puts people at risk of a host of debilitating mental disorders:

US scientists have found evidence that cats really do drive people mad.

Researchers from Baltimore's Johns Hopkins University say their findings show keeping a furry pet can lead to schizophrenia, manic depression and even permanent brain damage.
(this is sth coming from my brother further university...hope he don't come up with such 'useful' findings in the years to come ;p)

Dr Robert Yolken and his colleague, Dr Fuller Torrey, who have conducted years of tests, believe a parasite found in cat faeces called toxoplasma gondii infects the human brain.

Worryingly, pregnant women who contract the parasite, can transmit it to the foetus, with devastating effects on brain development.


Adopted from: www.bonsaikitten.com

how can anyone do that to an animals? Treating the cat like a BArbie Doll... come on, I am not fighting for animal's rights, but it is really inhumane for us to do it. Some people might be right, animals do not have morality, they do things accourding to their innate nature, but by doing this ( putting the kitten in a plastic bottle and box and star at it for pleasure), does it shows that we have morality too? ...Crap their argument...what kind of logic is that...I don;t mine you eat them, or kill them straight, but just don't take away their freedom like walking around in an open space....

YaH....Thanks that we have such artistic people around....

P.S Definition of Schizophrenia

Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is often associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and may have an underlying genetic cause.

A situation or condition that results from the coexistence of disparate or antagonistic qualities, identities, or activities: the national schizophrenia that results from carrying out an unpopular war.

My PRIMARY SIX Composition....:)

This was how I write back then in Primary six... Don't tell me it's not much different from now..haha...ENJOY!

The Day I Was Lost In The Shopping Mall
I will never forget what had happened that day. It was a Monday morning. The weather was extremely hot. My mother was too tired to make breakfast and so she brought me, a five years old girl, to the nearby shopping mall.
After their delicious breakfast, my mother went into the 'XY Book Store' to browse at some magazines and thrilling books. As I had no interest in reading books, I stood there like a robot. I soon became very bored and irritated, so I slipped out of the shop and went to the toyshop next door to amuse myself.
I jumped up and down while looking at the toys and was overjoyed when I saw a fascinating toy gun, I attempted to get the toy from the shelf but I could not, as it was too high. I jumped again. I could reach it this time but I knocked hard against the gun and it fell to the hard, marble ground, making a very loud and deafening sound.
I was sure enough that I would be punished. However this time it was not my mother, it was a tall and skinny saleswoman. She gave me an unblinking stare and brandished her fist to show her anger. I looked up reproachfully.
"Sorry… … Madam," I stammered as I apologized.
I felt nerves and worried as I shuffled out of the shop. I was terrified. I tried to recall where my mother was. I looked around. All I could see was a group of people smoking and I heard them saying strings of vulgarities. They looked pugnacious. Others were women and children busy shopping and chatting away. I was hopelessly lost.
At that moment, his eyes were filled with tears and drops of perspiration rolled down his cheek. I shouted for mummy but was hastily shushed. Every passer-by frowned and stared at me, but none was willing to help. I had an uncanny feeling that I was being watched.

"You had better made an announcement," said Mr. Tan, a guard at the shopping mall, in a very respectful manner. I looked down onto the carpet. My body shivered and my teeth chattered. I didn't answer. What I hoped for was my mother. Mr. Tan did not wait long. He held my hand and led me to the information counter. That did my heart good, as I knew I was safe.
"What is your name?" asked Mr. Tan. I shrugged and looked at him, but replied in a soft voice, "Hiu Yan".
"A girl called Hiu Yan who is wearing a blue T-shirt is lost. Her parents can come to the information counter at level one to collect her! A girl……!" a metallic voice croaked.
About a minute later, I could see my mother from a distance. I was so happy that I strained every nerve to wave at her.
We hugged each other when they met. My mother wiped the tears off his face and kissed me. I then realised that my mother dearly loved me.
Before we left, we thanked Mr. Tan. My mother then sent me ceremoniously home to have a hot bath and a good nap.
That night, when I laid down on my bed, my mind raced back to the frightening experience I had had!

Done by: Lau Hiu Yan

MY HAIR...

A crap entry..You dun have to read it...
Arrr...
My mum insisted on coming with me to the hairdresser yesterday..
She said that everytime I go to the hairdresser myself...it seems like my hair has not been cut...
NOw..my Hair is so short...arr...I dun feel comfortable...it seems like i have no hair...;(
But she and my father are so happy..sadistics...
Hmm...one wish...I will keep my hair long for at least once after I leave college...

HAha...today's is 13th sep...
About one week after the entry...
People have weird description on my new hairstyle...like China doll, the Hk actor Jiang Jia hui...teacher says it is nice...
Anyway, that's how I used to look in Sec one...
Here is a pic of the recent me!

Recalling teacher's Day

TEacher's Day...

I went to TMS at around 0830..meet up with Jia Min, Yin Ning, Joanne and Li Ting...
JP was still baking muffins....
Step into the foyer and saw Mr. Oh...He was busy as usual...excited as he used to be...we talked for a while and moved on....

Into the canteen...We saw Mdm Sabina..she showed us her daughter's photo...it was really adorable...I looked at other photos in her camera and found that her husband was really "Big size"...triple of her size I think....

As we walked passed the conference room to the hall...we shouted for Mrs. Tay who wsa in front of us. She was shocked! Haha...quite happy to see us she was...
She was one of the teachers who had taught me for 4 years le...my form teacher in secondary one...used to call me Hui Yan and even wrote that name in the report book which caused her great troubles...never forget my name since then :)

We then watched the concert performed by the graduating classes...
It was very funny...haha...better than Mj I suppose...they too have a baby photo contest...




I meet my Secondary one Science after that...never talk to her for a few years...if not for Jeevan who pull me into the conversation, I don;t think I will have a chance to talk to her...cuz I thought she has forgetten me...". But that's not the case..oopss...i told a photo with her too... Mdm Tan

Then,We saw Mr. Kamlesh who says he never enjoyed his Jc life in Vj..Ms woon who told us that Biology in Jc was easy...haha

I went back to Primary school after that....
And then travelled back to secondary school...

Just to meet up with all the TJ sec friends...
Talk, laugh, gossip and they need to hurray back for the S- cube talk..
So all the way I go...to the gate of TJ...
And home i went...
HAppy DAy...





Li Min dropped her wallet on the bus that day...hope that she has found it back..;)

PS. I saw Xiangle too...he is now much taller than me... ;)

Primary school...

I didn't manage to take a photo with our teacher cuz she is in a rush...
But I managed to take photos of the schools...The place where I once belong....



BEDOK SOUTH PRI (my school0 has merged with BEDOK VIEW to become
BEDOK GREEN....this is the sign board outside the dental clinic...



Me and my primary school friend...now my Best friend too...;)



The Place where we used to play the game Crocodile... I miss my old sch...



Kids today are lucky...they have much cleaner classroom compared to our times...
I seems so old suddenly



They even have a gym room called HERCULES..all theor equipments in it is kiddy size...VERY CUTE!!!

There are some more interesting pics...upload it when I have time...cya...
Hope you enjoy the tour to my so call "primary school"...although everything has changed...name, classrooms, building...At least the landmark is the same...I sense it...and our lovable teacher is still there..

Hurray;)

Teacher's Day 2005

Yesterday was fun...
I get to meet a lot of frineds and went back to primary school and took a lot of mermoarble photos...
But the sad thing was, my camera spoilt a very nice photo...Arrr...SOB...
I must show you guys....

St. John

Hmm...
This is a very interesting topic...esp to me....
That's why I wanted to write about this before moving on to recount about today's teacher;s day event...

I disliked St. John for quite some time when I was in lower secondary. Everything seems so torturing and boring back then. The only thing I liked is the camp and first aid, maybe one of the sir too...haha...

Then I moved onto Secondary Three, I started to take up leadership post, holding up responsibility and learning to order and command. "No PLEASE and THANK YOU in whatever you say"...this was what I learn. Be sharp, quick and flexible. And POLISH MY BOOTS AND IRON MY CLOTHES!!!

Secondary Four was my best year in St. John. I organised the campfire with Alvin and it was something that was really memorable. Everything we planned was screwed, we did not follow our timetable and all our effort was gone to waste. I was SO Depressed until Miss/ Mdm? Farisah come and say, "Good Job and Thank You!" I was doomed but that made me smile...

NOw, I signed on as a St. JOhn officer...
OTC (officer training course) Rocks! I love my group November...I love my group mates...they are fun and lovable people...and it is also when I changed my persepective on St. John guys...
We sing Army songs and stuffs like that...

Uploading Pic.....







1 day later
this is what i wrote after the camp...
OTC 2005 Rocks the Stage ...indeed...it is also one of the best camp i have ever went too...

Never ever expected OTC will be such slack and fun camp....

And most importantly...NOVEmBer RUlez to the core!!!! Nobody will dare to deny this fact..if not..haha...you will get it from us....;)

The following is something unique and special to NOVEMBER...It is the memories shared specially between the 17 of us...something that will never be forgetten...

Let's start with our most honourable person...SIR Harlim!!!

He is one of the most reasonable and fun - loving officer I have ever met....Someone whom we could look up and really respect!!! SALUTE ;)

Remember him...

Shouting "single file" during the hike and making us sing "a thousand legged worm" almost throughout the whole hike...

Sharing that can of drink on the beach and at the BB court....

Asking us to say..."Stranger stranger please go away, little children want to play" ...and apologising to our Dear Dennis Sir ...now officially our Garden Angel!

Sharing with us his experiences...the first time he did CPR...with a man with an 'aroma' mouth...

TEaching us the ooohmmmm...NOVEMBER for the team building game...and that "kicking ous ass" cheer cum dance...

Wearing that back T-shirt with a red light stick in the middle and acting as Teletubies...REAL CUTEEEE!!!!

Acting funny when the COurse IC says Course diam...

AND his SMILEY FAce N Cute ChaRacter!!!

Ps. Just found out that he keeps on saying haywiring online

Together with him is his so- called "Wife"....Mdm Xuan Ting...

Looking adorable with her gel hair and big eyes...

Cheer us on and always asking for excuse letters and consent forms...

sTART talking to us by saying " you all ar.."

Jump with us when doing the single file "thousand legged worms"

Friendly and approachable character...

NOw...back to the members...

Represented by our cheer taught by the MAN (Joshua the NS man ne)....."the sun will rise, the bird will sing, for us, for you, for me.....we are from OTC November...No member, no member, we are from OTC November...NOvember...NOvemBER!....WE are from OTC no Member a ah....

Our Trademark.....THE NOVEMBER WOoosH...and

THE OOHmmmmmm NOVEMBER

OUr style of greeting eachother with the song Teletubies….

Our favourite songs The thousand Legged worms and Three little Ducks…

Our orange flag with cutie Sir halim and Mdm Xuan Ting

Our wonderful campfire production: the ?!!?!!! ( I dun knoe wat also)

Recall….

Sitting on each other right tight…

Holding onto each other’s hand…with Jeremy creating a rainstorm

Cooking under the sun with the new invention of dry noodles plus curry chicken…

Calling the vice- chairman garden Angel…

Saying lame jokes and laughing at each other…the white gorilla??

Winning the best performance and best cheer award…

Taking in times when we are not supposed to…

Matching with the tone “lup lup lup right OTC..”

Walking in double n single file…

Waving the flag and leading the way…

The heee Smile

G- strings?!?!?

Amazing things that happen during GAMEs…

Saying “Slacker we win..”

Pouring water using our hand into the 1.5 bottles and blocking the view of the judges…

The woof, ne during the skipping rope game

Struggle to get up the stairs

Joshua’s scarify – climbing up the bars



Couples:

Batman and Robin

YY and Jy

AK and QH or Jy and QH?!?!

Joy and CK

..names are encoded to protect their privacy…(dun say errrr…)

Finally…remains

Some little secrets among us …



NOVEMBER will always remain in our hearts and will rock on forever….

OHMmmmmmmm…NOVEMBER….

Stay cool and smile my friends…

All the best!!! Good luck for those having examinations!!!



HIU YAN (xiao xin)

LIFE?!

In Science, time is never a limiting factor. Yet, why is it a limiting factor in my life? This is so frustrating.
The world can't be perfect anyway. Can it? You need sacrifices in order to get what you want. I don't like it but I need to learn to love it. Or do I?
I am so sleepy right now, all sort of things are just popping into my head.
What is the meaning of life? I checked the dictionary. There are millions and millions of definitions. This word is so ambiguous. However, everyone is fighting for it. Don't we? We study hard to have a better life, we eat, sleep, exercise in order to have a life....

Here are some of the definitions I found out..
(1) ability to function and grow that distinguishes living animals and plants from dead ones from rocks, metals etc.
(2) living things
(3) state of being alive as a human being
(4) qualities, events and experiences that characterize existence as a human being
(5) existence of an individual human being
(6) business, pleasure and social activities of the world
(7) liveliness, interest
(8) fresh start of opportunity after a narrow escape

ETC ETC....We might be surprised on how many definitions this word " LIFE " have, but that's life.

Enjoy it to your fullest.

HAPPY LIFE AHEAD!

Biz Club = Communist

Recently, there was something I was very happy about!
I won the third prize in the NETS INNOVATIVE SERIES by MENSA SINGAPORE!

I Spent weeks dealing with it...Cracking my brain, coming up with business plan, being frustrated over the prototype of our product...Sleeping almost at 2 am for that two weeks. Even skipped school before the competition day.

Though I did not manage to have the presentation as fluent as I want it to be, it was okay after all. My brother has criticized me on the flaws of our project, I was so sad that I can't stop myself from crying. Thanks to the support by the others that I recovered quickly.

Here, I wanted to say a very BIG THANK YOU to those who have helped me a lot during this period of time. Thanks Mdm Yati, My Father, MS NAncy TAN....
Without u guys, I might be domed....

However, just this week, there was something that really angered me....
THE POLICY OF THE SCH ---BIz CLUB....
They are acting like communist!!! AND WE can't stand it...
For everyone's information, I have won $3000 book vouchors...however, we might get only $1000 in the end.
Our Biz club teacher says that it is their policy to give them 80% of our prize.
Okay to take the prize if it was our own will...it does not really matter...it is something extra...BUT
There was No NEGOTIATION
NO COMPROMSIE
I take, you accept. She even says, "We are very good to you all already, we are giving you all more than 80% of the prize."
What? I won something, it becomes yours, and now you say you are very good to me because you are giving me more then you are intended to. What a Communist ACT! Should we be practising democracy in this learning insitution?

I was not pissed to a large extend until yesterday...
My friend's parents were very angry about it...they demanded something in black and white, so we went to see the teacher again...
She kept on emphasizing on their policy again...
And even said that the school has helped me a lot...
INdeed, Mdm Yati did, but not the others. So she expects us to pay thousand of dollars for the rental fees of the laptop? But does she know that the school has created much troubles than help too? I have wasted so much of my time and phone calls bacuse of the principal disapproval on our filming.

Arrr....What crap...I have no say...they are communist...i might get into deeper troubles if I protest...
Let things are....do not mention this website to her if any of you all know...
But that's sth me and my friends want to spread...

;P

ESCAPE IS COOL...

YestERday and TODay were toO COol to DEscriBe...

The day before today which is yesterday...Jung Pu, YinNing, HArriet, Joanne and Jia MIn came to my house for TV marathon...HAHA..That was so cool...

We sat in front of this TV set for hours...
We watched TOy STory ONe, The PANIsT, Then watch the Video Clip specially edited by my father on some of my brithdays, trips oversea and most significantly, our NDP show...We laugh out of nothing and continue like that until evening...
I made pizza in the mid time for lunch (Me n Harriet didn;t have lunch...and Harry was complaining that she was starving all the way:) )


THIS IS THE TV WE ARE ADDICTED TO!!!

After they left...I went to help my mum folds the clothes then i continued watching the " Yellow HAndkerchief" Korean Drama show...then at night when my brother came back, we watched a Hong Kong movie " MR MAK..." muhahahha, then end of with the Tawian Variety show "Guess Guess Guess" ...Sleep at 1 sth...

Today i woke up at about 8am...ate breakfast (roti prata & siew mai) then set off to PAsir RIs MRT... Everyone was late...but Adeline never Turn up...Strange...LAter we found out she was suffering from a fever and so we set off with 5 person...
YAN YAN, MIn MIN,Lyn lYn, JOJO, and PUPU

We reached the theme park at around 1030...
And i saw some kiddy taken some group photos...
Its says "ENGLISH TRAINING CAMP" in chinese, this kids were from Taiwan and came to SIngapore to train up their English...
I dun think it's help..i heard the Malay guy inside trying to speak Chinese to them...;)
Yup, and one think that make me very happy was that we get a 20% discount for having the POSB card...haha...

In the theme park we went and straight to the washroom we go...(JP was Urgent)
We placed our things in the locker and started with the PEPsi COla right...
360 degree turn ...FUN i thought...but JM and JoJo felt quite dizzy...

We headed for all those kiddy rides and the private ship...all these rides were very relaxing..not really adrenal pumping....but Min n Jo looked quite sick...
So we went for BUmper Boat Rides....I LOVE THAT!!!!
IT's like bumper car but now it;s on water and you get to shoot eachother...;)
We got a bit we and try to dry ourselves by taking the "Spiderman" ride...
Our butts face out as we lie on the seat..( i think we should have that in our school, reduce Stress le)

NExT is the Big Item!!!
HAUNTED HOUSE...JP went in for a few minutes and ran out of the house...
WE continued...holding hands and screaming at the top of our voice...it was exceptionally a new experince...ICHIBAN!!!!;)
SHIOK...

Lunch time at aroung 1230

FOlloewed BY
1)DRiving the go CAR...2)Panosonic (Alpha 8)which is the indoor roller costa ride sharp turns n rushing downn" WOW....3)some machine which bring you to the yop and come down again...4)Mini Sky Air balloon

It starts to drizzle for a while

After that me n Cherlyn went to play the INVERTOR...
SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK FUN FUN FUN
They swing you here and there and turn you upside down on the top of the world...
We took two rounds...
but sth irritating and fuuny happened at the beginning of the second round...the safety gear kept on moving up and down to let people in ...dotz....
And the seats are buring like fire becoz of the sun...(hope i burn some fats from it :)

I miss up something...The RETRO MACHINE at the entrance... the spin you round and round ...and you dun feel dizzy...we played 3 times ne...

We end with the baby go CAR and hurray off...
i was to leave by 4 sth and Jo JO need to go back to MJ to collect her stuffs...

We took some Neo print at the CHalet and it looked disgusting...(SHOWN BELOW)
PLease enjoy admiring it...!!!..try clicking to enlarge it!!!

BUt overall....it is a day worth remembering for the rest of my life...;)

STAY COOL PEOPLE

"WORTHWHILE" PIC

Friendster profile

HIHI

EXaminations are over!!!!
HURRAYY!!!
Although Physic paper wasn't too good, I am not in the mood to care aboutit right now!

The following is the profile in my Friendster for quite some time...
TO leave it as a memory, i will copy and paste it in my blog!

Me..........let's see! hmmm........i can turn crazy when i am in a very good mood....... be real quiet if i want to be alone.......overall........can be considered quite cheerful i think.........i have been scolded for smiling too much once..........heeeeeeeee",

Hi to all my friends...
Those who has taken a picture using my camera can visit the folloewing site to find themselves.
Don't be too excited to find me there...heee:)

http://community.webshots.com/user/monkeylau88

I miss my dream college....TJC...
WEnt back for O- nite, and it was the best memory i could ever have...I danced, scream, gone crazy and told everyone I love Tj esp. OG8....
It was sad leaving...I miss everyone...
Take care and all the best, my teachers and friends...

MJ is gonna to rock with me too! :)
FOR any INfo about me....Email at
monkeylau88@hotmail.com
BLOG: www.hiuyan.blogspot.com

COMPutER Idiot

I found out that do not really know hoe to operate this blog thingy...haha
I just managed to get a tag board for my dear website...
Trying out to find out more about....NOw ...IN AN EXcited STate...:)

Mid year is coming round the corner..this is horrible... I have been slacking this few days...doing things with a very low efficiency rate....
How I hope exams is over and i can stay here and type the whole night without feeling guilty....

Today I went to school to do the PW stuffs...ONe word..it is damn BORING,,,One of mygroupmate even went back to INdia permanently...leaving us with 3 persons...Why must the MOE ever think of all these things and made students have a extra workload...IRritating...HAAHAH
I sound like a frustrated typical teenager...
Actually...indeed i am one..;)

Tomorrow i am giving tuition to my friend's son...he will stare into space again...but at least he understands what i am saying....better than other tuition teachers he went to he says....well...i am satisfied with that...

Friday is my officer's training camp....might be torturing i think....but there should an element of fun embuded in it.... I hope so...
AND pray that my period won't come ...if not...i am in rain rain Trouble...
Wish for all the best to happen and everything will turn out fine!!!

All the best studying friends...Good Luck for the Mid- year EXaminations...
MAy all pass with flying colours!!!

I AM SICK

Today is only Wednesday and i have wen t to the doctor for three times....That's BAd...for me..:(
I didn't went to school on Monday and i went off early at aroung 0830 today....
My stomach is giving me lots of headaches....it get bloated and bloated and it never end....
the doc said i am suffering from some stomach flu which might have affected my intestines too .... i also did a urine test today....somehow....the test paper turn purple when it is not supposed to....i am screwed... now...i found that my bladder was infected too....from the 4 tablets i am eating currently....it has turn to 6 tablets....
No school today means i skipped lots of things too....Bio practical, CCA election, Math test...and blah blahblah..
Actually let's all the reasons i did not want to stay in sch...i will stress my body again and Don't know which part will get infected again...
MY STOMACH IS STILL BLOATED N PAIN!!!!!....SOB

Thanks to the mediterranean buffet i ate at International Contengial Hotel on Ssturday night...
all i ate was some strange stuffs that i never ate before....GOOD experineces but i will never try it again...at least for now....

I think i shall go to do some work now...trying to ignore my stupid stomach.......

CYA

TJC to MJC

Lots of things happened this few weeks.....hmmm....but let's me start with the MJC orientation....

OKay, the orientation was not very good nor was it too bad. First day was just some dry game and stuffs....they call it the KYC ( know your college) day, and Castor won the 2nd position:)
The next day was amazing race, it was really tiring, the stations were located at some rural area that made us had to run so much....and the worst thing was, a teacher was following us.....the whole thing was disastrous....we even met a group of ex TMS Tjian....so bad....they were wearing the Tj uniform in front of us....Joel n I was pissed....haha...We was the third for all the group 1 groups to get back...but CAstor got 2nd last...all becoz of Castor 2.....haiz

The last of orientation was Wednesday....and i found it very organised....Mj put wet games and campfire night on the same day...and the problem they dun allow us to take out our shoes while playing....so yucky....
Hmm....but the finale was at night....I acted as a stupid joker bear on stage which everyone thinks it was "CUTE"....wondering whether it was a good thing or not....hmmm
However, castor came in last ....cuz we oveshot the time and our television screen dropped off at the start....

ANyway, i shall continue the next time...DAD nagging...

CYA

Mixed FeElings...

ARrr....I hate my computer, once i connected my internet service with my Dad's com. , i can't go online....extremely irritating...and this have been going on for months...Aarr....can someone just fix it...but the problem is no one knows how to...PISSED!

My Appeal to Tj was unsuccessful and so i ended up in Meridian JC...today was the first day of Orientation...it was not that bad... though my group does not speak much and was not that enthusiatic...i decided to be the one that cheer and makes things fun...it ended up Ok after that...

Meridian is so much different from Temasek...maybe as SQ says...There is no culture here...unlike Tj....
Their mass dance is so ....(nothing to say)....the dance steps was stupid i thought...but anywway, i am going to like it...DUN COMPARE...my mum told me...if not, i will feel SAD AGAIN, and that's bad...

Castor's cheer is like Terranus cheer...though the tone was a bit different, the lyrics are almost the same...i think i need some time to get use to it..:p

TJC OG8 for the first three months of 2005 was better...this is a fact and i am not going to repeat it twice...
AARDE we are AA can't you see
come my house and have some tea
drink already sure MATI...

BUt for now...MJ castor 1 is gonna to rock the stage too..

On Saturday, i talked to Herlina over the phone for almost an hour...she thought i got back into Tj but found out that i didn't ...she became speechless...She felt really sad too... said a lot of touching things....
She told me tat she could rather have who and who to leave except me....that i was her true friend...someone to speak her heart out..
Yeah...indeed she was...She was the oldest friend that i knoe...Over ten years of friendship...and 10 years of being in the same school...i am going to part...we promise to meet up often but still, it was still hard for her to believe the fact...

Here are something for all my friends in TJ, NYJ , RJ , VJ and HCJ
esp. to Herlina and some of my OG and SCG mates

Sometimes friends have to leave
It's very sad but true
But this me to believe
Friends still a part of you

And if you go away
And live some other place
I will think of you each day
and see your smiling face

and I
will always be your friend
No matter where you are
Just around the bend
or very very far

whenever you will go
When you reach your jouners end
No matter what
I'll always be your friend

I will always be
YOUr Friend
although we're far apart
I'll see you in my dreams
and feel you in my heart

althought the years may fly
I know we'll meet again
and when we do
I still be your friend
Your very
TRuest
Bestest
Friend

LOve Always...HIu Yan

TJC.....make me understand the word "sad"

Oh...this happened under LT1 of TJC .I was shocked and stunned as i looked at the Jc column next to the 8871603 E IC no. It was really unbelievable, something I had not dream or even thought of......I was posted to Meridian JC.
For a few second, I couldn't react, I felt a sense of fear, I blinked.....and squeezed back into the crowd......8871603E....Meridian Junior College....I confirmed myself, there was no mistakes....I walked out of that area...trying to find someone to scream my head out....I saw Herlina....I uttered out my words....I sound worried....and sound as if i am going to cry...I put her to accompanied me to get my appeal form....and i wen t round holding onto that form....no one believe i was kicked out.....not my friends, my seniors and especially myself....but it was truth.....my first idea was to get home...to get things done and most importantly to calm myself down....i am suffering from SHOCK....and i Know that myself....
As i walked home....i couldn't hold back my tear anymore....my mind was empty except for this very disappointment....
I dashed home, mum was home....i was relieved....someone to share my feelings......
I rushed through the forms and essay and dashed back to school....
nothing concern me...i was too sad....i frowned badly....
Thanks to all who helped me along on the way....
Ms Shera Tan, Mr Lim, Weldon, Zoe and friends esp. MS and my senior Kai Bin who has tried to console me......it was really heart warming.....
I hope i could get back into Tjc.....it is all i hope for for now...PRAY HARD for me guys....
Let's me have fun in MJC orientation!!!!
It's gonna be a new experiences......
I miss everything.......
P.S After the appeal, Mummy brought me to Redhill library for the FRINED OF LIBRARY party, i cried all the way from Bedok to Redhill as my mum talked crap to me...the old pp do stupid things....i stopped crying....and i chatted with MS<>Good night and sweet dreams!!!

I miss HOME

I am so tired now....
Can't stand this week...it's too pack, going home at 7 sth everyday really freaked me out...Actually, it is okay if there is no work to do when i reach home...cuz i can just sit around sleep and watch TV, but the problem is I still need to do work and stupid for all stupid tests...( I have a Chem class test this Fri)
Some people might wonder what i do....
Okay...Monday, i am dismiss at 5.15pm bcuz of Chem pratical
Tuesday...i had the Sub. Com. interview thingy and i also spent so much time waiting for Mr. Ng to register my PDP
WEdnesday, which is today, i have CCC...and one bad thing is that i play Tick Tic toe with my friends during Civic Talk and was dicovered by my Gp tutor....she did something that make us feel so guilty...nothing good to talk about anyway...
Got to present for Bio tml....hope everything will go on smoothly...got to stay back until 7 tml to play captain's ball again.....
Anyway...i think i should go and read up som eof my Chem's stuffs, I am sure i dun have the mood to study tml after the game...
Wish to have more Free Time,,,,,,
:)

Busy Days...

Okay people....The real JC life has really begun....
Went home at about 7pm (thought it might be considered early for lots of pp) but I still miss the free time I get during my holidays...
Yesterday, I was dealing with the Biology draft presentation.....studying the whole chapter on Ribosomes....dun understand the most part of it until my brother came to the rescue... Ribosomes....the smallest organelles in our cell....Workbench for protein synthesis....right now...my brain is all filled with this tiny thingy.....
JC is really different....they dun care whether you can make it or not...it's not their problem anyway....you just find out and deal with it all yourself....Today, I give you the assignment, you are to hand up tml....Well, i finally get a glimpse of the working world...
Today, I find out that I miss the PDP registration online.....I am so annoyed by myself....everyone registrated except me...the special me.....haha...got to search for the teacher- in0 charge tomorrow....MR. NG....hope he is a nice guy and don't ask too much...
The training time for CCC (chinese culture club) and First aid unit actually crashed today....I was kind of mad over it at first....but then I found out that I can join the FIRst aid n just go for public duty to gain CIP hours n not attend the training...this is cool I thought....and the main thing is, I dun see any J1 stundents joining and i might be lonely in the club....
CCC...it was really fun...the people there are really cheerful....we played the BEAR and HAUNTER game today which our dear senior Zi Yuan loved it so much...it was very fun anyway....and I learnt some stupid "mind" games.....can't wait to share it with my juniors back in SEc. Sch.....",Though, we also haelped them punching holes for the singing event this Friday....
Before that, I went for the Delta House meeting....our house won the cheering campaign for 11 years...that was cool and I am proud of it....tml is Captain's Ball tournament....Hope that our C.G will win...SUre it will, with me in it....BHB...i am not that good anyway....
G.P is "...." , made me go and do journal about PRsident Kernney(uSA_) that is involved in some cold war...haiz...i hate writing a very good piece of essay, report or account....cause i ususally my piece of writing...hope things will change in JC....at least, I will definitely need to improve my English....in order for me not to grieve for GP....:X
Heeee...I am going to have the boring Physic pratical with our "Great" Mr. NEo tml...wish that it could be more interesting than the last lesson
Anyway...Hurray to JC life....it might be very tiring with our increase workload but it could be another memorable and fun journey of our teenage's life!!!

SCG

Ok.....so Tj decide to start our tutorial yesterday instead of next week....we were separated from our CG...it was so cruel to do that....tells us to make good n great friends n then splitting us....many hope that Plan A will work out....i Dun know....

Well, i get to know my SCG better today...the people here where great too...they talk, joke n do watever crap they feel like doing.....more description after knowing them better...

One more thing, I find Tj teachers are really cute.....at least those who teach me are....they all have their own characteristic.....I think i will describe some of the funny things they did n process in my next entry.....n once again....they are really adorable.....n their ages ranges from 19 to one who is almost 60...

I have been working all night trying to upload pictures to this blog...but it' s so unsuccessful n i am sort of frustrated....just give u the link to view some of my pictures....deal with all the other stuffs later
http://community.webshots.com/user/monkeylau88

Hope it works....

Oh yeah....just to add on...I have my first PE lesson in TJ...it was stupid...we ran 1.6km outside the college ( it was cool i didn't get exhausted) n did 15 pushups......

Just HOPE from now that i can pay my studies installment regularly each months...( tt's wat our teachers tell us....must start paying installments now in order to buy an A.....it is too expensive to afford one in a few month

P.S: AB (normal) is not a blood group but sth to describe TJ sciences' teachers.....it's abnormal
LEarn from GP lessons today!!!

LAst Week of Early Dismissal

Herlina, YunTing, Desmond and Guo Hong went to my house n play Mao Jang today......
But it was not the best part....it was more fun taking pictures n talking craps out of eachother....

We took pictures with Doraemon and almost all of my soft toys......a bit exaggerated.....
It was cool....a bit navie..... n marvellous/////:) Maybe we could have less of this moments after this week.....Next week, our tutorials are starting, school and PDP will end at 5pm sth or even & 7 to 8 pm....

Really start missing my holidays.....n my Orientation....it was completely filled with joy and laughter..unforgettable memonts i could say...

My adorable cousins who still thinks of me now....my new friends.my old classmates..our OGLs....My cheeky Brother...all of them all great people that stepped into my life n make it "cheerful" enough for me to enjoy

One more interesting thing....I found that my Maths lecture teacher now is really a MR. Ng KIM To look alike...the way he walks, teaches, looks...is almost the same as him...maybe they were twin brothers..haha

Now, i will try to find out how to post pictures....on this special blog of mine...cya everyone

SMILE ALWAYS...

Triple Science

Well, I got into triple science....
People might think that it is a good thing....haha...i am so stress over it...
Never thought that i will ever get in.....
Look at my Science Result...I didn't even get an A1 for a single science....
And Tj is so kind enough to offer me this combo.....

Econs is interesting but i am not going to study it further....Bye bye to all those opportunity n stuffs....gonna to miss it i think....

One more thing, i couldn't stop myself from thinking is that i will do better in Econs than Physic....
I am so ARRRRR.....Fed up, mess up......Indescribable feelings.....

But remember, I am still lucky n this world, at least we are..read the following...

If you woke up this morningwith more health than illness,you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week

If you have never experiencedthe danger of battle,the loneliness of imprisonment,the agony of torture orthe pangs of starvation,you are ahead of 20 million peoplearound the world

If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment,arrest, torture, or death,you are more blessed than almostthree billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator,clothes on your back,a roof overyour head and a place to sleep,you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank,in your wallet, and spare changein a dish someplace, you are amongthe top 8% of the world's wealthy

If your parents are still married and alive,you are very rare,especially in the United States.

If you hold up your head with a smileon your face and are truly thankful,you are blessed because the majority can,but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug themor even touch them on the shoulder,you are blessed because you canoffer God's healing touch

If you can read this message,you are more blessed than overtwo billion people in the worldthat cannot read anything at all

You are so blessed in waysyou may never even know.

2005

Hi.....
It's been a long time since i wrote something here again....
Today is the first day of the year 2005...
Nothing great to celebrate actually...
Sad things have been happening around the world last year.....
Earthquakes that lead to tsunami had caused millions of deads......*_*
I often think that human race would get extinct one day...It is just a matter of time...Innocent dinosaurs can't survive...how could we?
We know too little about this universe...the Earth...or even ourselves....all these things are so complex.....beyond what we can imagine....

There is one question that i always hope for an answer : Do chicken exist first or do eggs exist first.....Mummy often tells me that we are from Mars.....that we are the creators of ourselves...we are so intelligence that we robbed the Earth from Dinosaurs....we made monkeys, gorillas, apes that we know could slowly evolved to what we call humans....

Humans might seem clever but are we? There are so many unanswered questions...so many things that we can't stop learning before we die.....
Have you notice that someone shut our brain down, we are supposed to use our whole brain and not part of it....we are always told not to waste...so why are we wasting our brain power....
something that i really dun understand.....

Anyway, in this new year....I hope that each and every of your dreams will come true

Stay Healthy n Happy always......

Hope for WORLD PEACE.......