The reason

After 1 whole month of holidays, I decided to laze at home and watch drama series. This is a really good time to sit down and unwind myself. And to think through and reflect about matters.

Many people has asked me about the ways that I am going to deal with my long-distance relationship. Frankly, my brain didn't accept the fact that I am going to leave HK for long until I stepped on the plane. I left so many things behind including important documents or even, partly my heart. The feelings were strange. It was just like leaving home 3 years ago. In a wink of an eye, I am back. And it is really an irony that I need to adapt to a place which I called 'home'.

Things change in years. Buildings. Cars. Handphones. And even feelings. Perspectives. This is scary. For family, we can always be bonded because we have a similar line of blood flowing in us. And love that was showered on me all this years have brought me back to Singapore. I came back for the love of my parents. This had allowed my boyfriend and I to learn to appreciate each other so much while we are still together. The love of a youth is so precious and truth. The love from my boyfriend has been so selfless and true. He has been like my family. I really do treasure that a lot. There are many compromises and promises that we have made and that we shall keep. And I hope, with all my hearts, that everything we go smoothly as planed.

A night with thoughts

At this very moment, my throbbing headache has been preventing me from sleep. As I roll in my bed, trying to concentrate on getting into a sub-conscious state of mind, memories started to flash past my eyes. It is very hard to believe that I had finally ended my life as a student and is entering into the complicated world of adults. The place where reality haunts you, makes you leave your truthfulness and makes no excuses for you being naïve. I dream the world is like a Disneyland where everyone sees reality as a fantasy and carries a smile across their faces. I hope there is no disasters, no policies. I wish I can continue to stay in the mind of a child, at least, for a few moments each day. Maybe, everyone’s life can be a fairy tale if you learn to see the beauty that you have in life.

I admit that I have really grown a lot in the past 3 years, having to be away from your family coerced me to be independent and to be a more responsible person. Being part of the allied health team, many patients have helped me learn the preciousness of life and never to take advantages of anything that you possess. I do. And I feel I am blessed.

My graduation trips with my boyfriend and family makes me feel how loved I am. Being able to travel to beautiful places with your loved ones is the most rewarding thing that can happen in one’s life. Philippines vs Italy. The beauty of nature vs the beauty of mankind. Every little scene is so captivating. These are unforgettable trips that will stay in memory forever and ever. These trips are applauds to the glory of my student life and the start of working journey. Thanks for all who have been with you. With Love.

P.S. Later on trip details oh! :D

3 years of uni

Today is going to be my last day in my hall which I have lived for the past 3 years. Exhausted from the packing for the week, the feeling of sadness was that strong in the past few days. However, when this day finally arrives, I begin to miss this place very very much. This place has accompanied through my university days and it filled me with joy, laughter, knowledge, luck, love and loads of many memorable memories.

In this room, I have come to know 5 room mates and most of them really made my days each day after work.

Somehow, I hated farewell and I found myself in a state of denial that I am going to leave. The emotions to leave a place is too much to bear, yet, these feelings have been reappearing and reappearing throughout these 3 years. Sometimes, I just try to numb myself, to refrain from meeting too much people.

At the end of day, I really want to thanks all of my friends and family who have been part of my life. The 3 years of my university life was so fulfilling and joyous. It would never have been that good.

Singapore 新加坡宣傳片

TV advertisement - through which Singapore attempted to attract Hong Kong emigrants after 1989.

:) I went over! :D

Funny Funny :)

Miss Singlish to some extent. haha.

Exchange in UK in short. Exclusive. :D

Corpus Christ CHurch @ OXford

In one of the college's park.

View of Oxford from the Carfex Tower! ^^

Sunset at Windsor along the Long Walk.
~Amazing.

Windsor Castle. :)

Corpus Christ Church.
Remember it from Harry potter?

Departure with IVY!
~Hope she has stayed a bit longer. (She was only with me for 2 weeks >< sad)

My bathtub!
~Bubble bath almost everyday! :D

Derwent Waters.

A surprise view at Lake District!
~It was really surprising! One of the most beautiful view I have ever seen!

Castlerigg Stone Cirlce @ Lake district.
~A small version of stonehenge.

Swans at winderemere lake.
~A beautiful night.

Windermere lake at dawn. ^^

Wandering into the woods @ Windermere. ^^
~It was a thrill! I saw wild dogs chasing deers and jumping across a stream. A dangerous thing to do but it was worth it!

Ravenglass.
~Seaside @ lake district. A fishing ground. WOO.

AWESOME!!!
~Breathtaking!

With my hostel mates at Wastwater.

Wastwater, Lake District
~Considered the most beautiful scenery in the UK.

Sheep high up in the mountain of lake district.
~Mer mer gor's favourite! :D

The entrance to my house.
~Arthur Sanctuary House.

The house at the backgroud is where I stayed.
~This is the view from my room! :)

Entrance to the John Radcliff Hospital.
~A path that I pass everyday to work.

English Breakfast.
~One of the few cheap dishes that tasted so good.

My daily Dinner in Oxford!
~Aside from dumplings, I almost eat these food almost everyday. Nevertheless, it tasted so good everyday! Chicken wings+ Sausage+ Egg Tomato Onion Soup + Fried Rice ^^

My Access Card @ Trauma Unit @ John Radcliff Hospital
~Love that place. Miss it.

These are my colleagues, those who have taught and worked with me!
~From the pics, you can see that I really have a fun time! Cheerful, fun, joy plus education. :D Pictures on the last day.

Taiwan Trip on Easter Holidays

Leaving Taipei. Hello Kitty Boarding Gate!
~how lucky can I be ^^


On Miramar Ferris Wheel (美麗華摩天輪)
~The best thing is that they allow 2 persons in one wheel!
~Amazing view of Taiwan.
~Life is really like a Ferris Wheel, it never stop spinning and it gives you unbelievably surprising views of the world and people around you. When it is time for you to get off, you have no choice but to go, to allow others to see their lives, the things around them. It takes 17 minutes of this Ferris Wheel to go in a complete circle but it may take more than 70 years for me to complete my life. Undoubtedly, I have more time to stop and look at the beautiful things around me. To feel the world. To enjoy my life.


A clinic opened by My dad and me?
~helping people with drooping breast and eyelid? Gosh.

Gold Waterfall.

View of 九份

小人国

Hello Kitty theme restaurant! LOVE IT! :D

做人， 要懂得放开，珍惜。
我是一个非常幸福的人了。

I miss Disneyland

I love going to castles and palaces...

But I love going to Disneyland castle more...

I miss the New Year Disneyland...

I miss my prince...

I miss home...

Some thoughts

Everyone has their rights to their thinking and beliefs. Yet, people never liked to be disagreed upon. Support is something we always wanted. That makes us friends. Science always wanted consensuses. Yet, that do not means they are based on any evidences, it just comes from experiences. Nevertheless, I really do not believe much in evidence-based practice, people make up results and hence you often find Cochrane Systematic Review Database saying, "there is not enough evidence to prove that... ...". Evidences are for the police and lawyers and not so much for clinicians and doctors. We need experiences written down by our seniors, consultants and experts. Clinical research is critical but there is often too much variable among patients for a good comparison. By the way, people will continue with more and more researches (which I myself will be doing it). Well, this gives us the power! The POWER to say that this is right! The power to produce evidences that I am RIGHT in court. The POWER to justify that I am INDEED right. Experts are experts. But evidences rule above all.


Once, the environment shaped us and now, we shapes the environment. The difference is that the environment did good to us in any aspects of life but we as human, are harming the environment. This shows that humans are selfish and self-centred. We always think we are right (at least at the very first moment)and so people come up with evidences to justify our doings. The world has gone insane.



A picture of bear bear @ Blenheim Palace ^^ on 21th of Feb
I really really nice place indeed.



PS. Dementia has the worst impact on your family and carer.

Interesting finding @ oxford

I realize I can't stay in the UK during the winter season for long because I depend on my mouth for breathing. At first, I didn't realise the reason for the discomfort over my throat every time I wakes up in the morning even when I try to hydrate myself with plenty of water. Until today, I found the reason to it when I had a really bad sore throat. I realize that my throat felt so much better closing my mouth but I couldn't do that for long as it makes me suffocate. I just found out that I have restrictive "nose" disease. I have so much difficulty breathing with my nose, I might just be another COPD patient without my mouth. It is something sad to know about. One thing, I couldn't survive long with the dry and cold air outside unless I have a humidifier with me or a sweet helping me to produce ample of saliva for lubrication. Oh well. Will my body adapt to this? Stop giving sore throats!

A frustrating fact.

week 04

This is the 4th week here in oxford, amazing isn't it? Time really fly by so quickly then you can ever imagine it. Work is taking up most of my time and energy and I loved that it had. My patients today had been literally shitting all over the place. It was a disaster but it would be somethings I will be remembering for a long time. There is so much that can happen in a day that makes you end up laughing in tears.

It has been snowing the whole morning but all the snow has melted once I was dismissed from work. How I hope I can build a snowman from that! :P I hated the snow and just wanted to get some fun out of it but I missed the chance. :P

Enjoyable placement but I miss the people back at home.

:) Mixed feelings.

I am really frustrated with the Internet service I having here. I couldn't even a photo onto the Internet! Anyway, I have great fun at the Oxford Ice Rink today. I love skating here, strong rock music with ample amount of space. I might try going to the Disco night held every Friday and Saturday night, it would be a memorable experience skating in the dark with colourful lights and blasting music. Rather than traveling to far away places, I am finding places near my accommodation and that is enjoyable for myself. I really DISLIKE being outdoor in the cold and dark.

Yesterday, I went to Blenheim palace which is currently the home to the 11th Duke and Duchess of Marlborough and the birthplace of Sir Winston Churchill. It is set in 2100 acres of beautiful parkland surrounded by sweeping lawns, award-winning formal gardens and the great Lake. Took great pictures! Hope I can upload it here some days.

Back to work tomorrow.

A picture of me inside the Corpus Christ Church. :)
-took 30mins to upload this pic :P

Recent update

Dear all,

It's marvelous. I am almost a staff now or I can actually call myself a staff. The staffs are giving more work than they are doing themselves. I have managed 7 patients in 2 hours today! That means I can actually manage 28 patients in a day. That sounds awesome. The fact that I am working hard makes me so exhausted after each day and that is a very marvelous thing as it makes me feel less lonely after work. I always want to eat and sleep. :P

I have less motivation to go traveling on weekends without my buddy around. It just seems that a memory without somebody to share with is not a complete memory. Maybe, I will go to some nearby places instead. The weather is so cold and it makes me hesitate to go to places too far away. It get so freezing cold at night! It seems like I will just freeze anytime. Oh well, this will save me some money for my graduation trip! :)

Anybody wants to go to lake district with me on the 13th of March?

London is cool as ever.

Went for the lion king musical! Awesome! I might visit London for one more time. Maybe, the hustling city is the best place to travel alone. I still love london. haha. Oxford is a cool place too. :) Adopt to the place.

in oxford @ John Radcliffe hospital

Hi everyone,

It's been long since I lasted blogged. There has been so much stuffs going on about life that stopped me from blogging. I am currently in oxford, it's a real magnificent ancient place but I really didn't like the weather around here. Too cold. My face has attacked by the wind and the snow today. Bad. Snowing isn't as beautiful as I thought it would be if I was actually in the snow myself. >< Well, if you know what that means.

It's been busy at work. I worked 11 patients yesterday!(compared to 4 -5 in HK) Working environment here is really different. You spent a lot of time with the patients and the ward is so spacious and luxurious. Great facilities, patient-care etc. etc.

Went to a pub with a friend here for dinner. Had a great chat and drink. :)

Last weekend...
Windsor on Saturday
Cadbury Chocolate Factory on Sunday

cool cool cool...

Everything is great except for the weather that is making my nose sick. >< :)

Cheers!

Extreme stress

Extreme stress.

Self-created?

Herpas simplex conquering my mouth.

Got to learn to relax.

I am still on-time.

There is never equality in this world.

Learn to face it.

Entering 2010

爸爸的心血　身體中遺留　祈求延續你成就沿路愉快演奏
即使不算優秀　獎盃我沒有　我在你那眼中仍似個寶寶多麼罕有
跌倒不用怕羞　似是我小時候 當哭得太久　樣樣自責不夠
你是個每一天　重建我身份的小宇宙　生於這個地球
就算一剎找不到出口　你珍惜便夠


很忙很忙， 很想很想放一个REAL HOLIDAY!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!